you never knew.

I love my PW group.
But i hate PW.
finally! everything ended! with a big "."

F.R.E.E.D.O.M!

yayyyyyyyyyy! :D

no more Saturday with nothing but only PW.
no more RP with nothing but only PW.
NO MORE SEBASTIAN SCOLDING ME "f*ck" and doing obscene act infront of me while rehearsing OP!!!!

i think i gonna miss this PW group(not PW)
out of the 5groups in the class, i think we are the group with most crapping sessions/dirty jokes/sex education(by the guys)/slacking periods/smacking-Sebas-and-laughing-at-YC time. I must say that i enjoyed doing things with these people :)

WenJia , Yanchng , Sebastian and Bengheng(you still owe us 2 icecreams!) , overall, it's still nice working with you all :)
i think i'll still prefer Yanchng to call me " aeh-ded-lin-ah" instead of my usual "adelyn" because i'm so used to it alr! haha!
love you all lots!!!!!


Oh anyway , eldest bro ROM this sunday!!! :D
my dasao will really be my dasao alr! yay! i like her lah! :)
BUT i got no $ and no time to buy clothes.. so i'll just rummage through the closet to find smth decent to wear.
(i got this feeling in the end I'll still wear the black tube dress from batam..but it's okayy. all clothes will look good on pretty people) :D




I've been thinking when i will post this. Maybe once and for all.
after all, it's past tense already.




I loved you
You loved me
I needed you
You needed me
I trusted you
You trusted me

You dumped me
I still loved you
You hurt me
I still needed you
You betrayed me
I stopped trusting you

I hate you
You may hate me, but i don't give a damn about it.

You were so confident that you can have me back whenever you want
you were so sure i still have a thing for you
you were so greedy that you wanted everything
you have no respect for me
you have no respect for her
you have no respect for yourself

are you objectifying me?
eff u , seriously.
you tell me , what qualities do you have to deserve me?
oh yes, I'm not pretty and I'm gigantic and who am i to think i'm superior?
no get it right.
I'm not superior. it's you, you are inferior.


I am not turning back.
I said I am not turning back.
I don't wanna hear u talk.
I don't wanna read anymore messages.
I am stopping all these shit.
I'm not going to say : because you suck.

It's over.That's it.




oh yes your friends didn't know why you left that job.
i know. eff your dishonesty.serve you right. learn your lesson my dear.

you never understand how i feel, never see things in a way that is more in depth,u do things without considerations.
eff your ignorance (not that it's wrong to be under-educated , but it's your choice.& bad choice btw.)

you were so sure i wanted you.no need to elaborate.
eff you for being over confident

you keep changing girlfriends. no that's not wrong. making me a vamp , a third party is.
eff your disrespect for me and your disloyalty to her.

为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得

世界上那么多人
只有我一个人 能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了(你当我傻的啊？）

stop deceiving yourself , the truth is that you don't truly love me.
love isn't like that
you are not something i cannot do without
so it's over.
Time to put an end to it.
The price i paid is huge.
nevertheless I'll move on. and you too.


i used to love you.
i fell in love with you once, twice , thrice.. but along the way, i lost myself.
i realized you will never understand what I'm talking about
it's tough communicating w you cause i have to act as if I'm dumb.
we are from two different world, i am tired from camouflaging myself in your world and behaving as if I'm one of you all.
it's tiring and draining every part of me.

loving you makes me stop loving myself
that's why i love you .. no more.
bye my dearest-ed.



Some point in life, you need friends to help you make decision, or rather, affirm your decision.
I'm glad that early morning i woke up from my own delusion.
i now know how important friends are to me.
when u did something that is rightfully wrong
when u got no one to turn to
when u need someone to reassure and ascertain your decision
Friends are there.