Mugger so what ?

To imagine how your life could be better and then have the means yourself to change it.

Guess my blog needs to retire soon,
the reason?
My time is a scarcity,
I've got to make choices to make sure my Mum will get the highest satisfaction from my year end result report, hence blogging has become an opportunity cost- the highest alternative forgone.

How I wished Ceteris Paribus does hold; that the assumption:as long as you study,you will do well is true in the reality.
I'm proud being a Mugger you know, because I know where's my limit,and I know it myself：I'm nowhere near, not even 30%.
any idea what differentiates a Mugger and a nerd? muggers study hard and play hard , nerds just study hard and cry hard if they didn't get their 90percentile or is the lowest among the Agrades in class, that's the difference.

How about a mugger and a closet mugger?
A closet mugger will always go "why are you studying?! don't study leh i also never study!I don't care one" when he actually read the notes upside down inside out the night before.
A mugger ? One that will tell you she did study, openly , and won't mind you calling her a mugger, just like me.



(Quitting tuition in a month's time!)
:)

Evaluation of material--first draft of the First Draft-- completed.
One Down!

铁了心才做出的决定

Congratulations , You pissed me off.
Decided to put an end to it on my part.
Enough is enough.
我不是傻瓜 不要再被你放鸽子
我不是白痴 不会这样子被你耍
我希望你快乐 但老实说 你的快乐令我很不快乐
我越看越不顺眼 越看就越讨厌
我看不下去了 所以希望你能在我的世界里 完全消失
那会是我最后最后一次为你流眼泪
故事的开端结局一开始就被定下 别让它有第二章
你听好 我才是作者 主宰我自己命运的人 我不是你的玩偶
我希望这是真正的 全剧 终。

最近的我 不快乐
我好像说了很多谎 跟我自己说谎
我变得很情绪化 我可以很快乐 突然变得很不快乐 两个极端交叉替换 好累人
面对一件事 我一下看的开 一下看不开
说好的阿 我会很好 但有好像不是真的如此
我无法理解我到底在想什么
这不是我 不是林慧珊的作风

不是的， 我很了解情况 但我一直替自己找理由
我不能跟谁说， 跟谁说都一样 我会很瞧不起我自己
日记我一页一页的写 每一次都跟我自己说“我可以更好”
但我下一次提笔又会是因为同一个矛盾 同一件事情
你懂这种感觉吗？
我懂。
我不想再为了某些小小的事情让我心情跌落谷底
我不要因为别人脸上的微笑，无论真假，让我停止我的微笑
我本来也可以过得很好的啊
何必自己一个痛苦 多不值啊

我因该有从中学到什么 我还在努力把它认清楚
所以最近的我 希望会更快乐

Back from 2309 class Chalet ! :)
I am sure I'm not as tired as the rest, cause I slept at 4am. The rest didn't at all. haha!

It was a simple but really a pleasant,amusing,entertaining,and definitely enjoyable Chalet outing.
Woke up at 7am so as to pack my bag and meet Zhi Heng(my class leader) and YY(YingYu, we are the food IC ) at 10am to buy the ingredients for the steamboat.

We went to the wet market to buy the food and went over to zhi hing's house to prepare it. It seems like being able to deal with squids(sotong) is really a big deal. LOL now then i realised. Mummy i love you for teaching me how to cut squids up without messing up the kitchen with their 一肚子的墨水.haha!
Decided to have steamboat instead because there isn't alot of ppl actually. quite a few turn up , and about 10 stayed Overnight.

It's at the Costa Sands, Really very small as compared to the one we used to have for LEO. There's no living room , no tables(we ate steamboat on the floor! One in a lifetime experience!) no second storey. it's just like a typical hotel room. But it's okay , we're very small in size :)

We went for a walk in the Pasir ris park after leaving our bags in the room.Took LOTS of pictures along the way. Zhi Heng keep on demonstrating how to catwalk-man or woman-he knows both and believe me , he's good at it. I was laughing all the way throughout and was so "high" that i actually cat walk with him while the others take a video of it. LOL! that's embarassing but it's so god damn hilarious! Zhi heng says he wants to "zai pei" me and i told him he really looks like those runway models instructor.

After dinner we went to Cycle. yes, it's night cycling :) Had to say that the cycling part was a little slow cause we got a lot of ppl , have to ensure no one gets lost. went from coasta sand to Tampines park connector and go back again. I was shag and dead tired, so tired that i think i'm the first one to fall asleep - at 4am.(they say it's "still early") . Some of them continue to cycle till like 6am ? siao!

Everything went on smoothly - thank god.
Atleast i feel that our dinner is considered decent and we are also very good boys and girls--no alcohol. haha!
Photos i lazy upload , can be seen in facebook i'm tagged :)



Now i'm going to clean the floor , then sort out my worksheets and files , den maybe chiong tutorials . Anw,exams were disastrous :

GP:never fail to fail
BIO:Crap
CHEM:easy paper but no time finish
MATHS: 33m empty- AJC must be crazy. JY,BELIEVE ME YOU WILL BE STUNNED BY MY PAPER IF YOU SEE IT, it's a 13qn paper .


BYE!