I am so glad to be in the house of God today.
Heart of God church- forever I will stay.



Thinking back, I have been in church since Easter's service, that is like almost 5 months ago.
This 5 months, it wasn't an easy walk.Having to handle schoolwork,fellowship with new church friends,followup..5 months and I've got my own ups and down.

I cannot remember how I came to know God, but things just fall in place when I know I need to go back to service every week.It isn't a routine, It is a rhythm. I remember doubting God, doubting whether He's really there, doubting the kindness of people in church.One thing alleviated me from that situation,that is,faith.
Faith is such an abstract word, so simple and yet difficult to explain.A 5month Old christian would define it as"believing in what you believe in,even if it is something you cannot see at the present"

For me, I started believing in God-bit by bit-then learning how to believe in the God I believe in.
It's not just believing that He is God,we are not (what a cliche) , but rather after coming to Christ, I choose to believe He has a purpose for me in life,He has got plans for me,whatever doubts that are within me,I took the faith to believe sooner or later, God is going to clear my doubts.

One really important verse in the Bible, John 3:16 that goes,
" For God so love the world that He gave his only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life"

before I was saved,
I cannot understand what's with the everlasting life, the difference between Holy spirit,Jesus,and God.
I think Christians are all crazy people-crazy over this God of theirs called Jesus Christ. -_-

To me, Christianity is nothing more than a cross being put up on stage.Haha, but 5 months is all I need to proceed to my next level of spiritual life, to touch the tip of the ice berg in this new relationship with God. God love us all, that He gave(not just sent, but gave)His only son to redeem me and my everlasting life would be to spend my days happily in Heaven and coming to know God :) God moves in different ways in different people's lives.I would say that I am a more happy person than before, more sociable, more accountable for my actions and learn to express my gratitude and love towards all my friends and families.




And, I dunno why, but I really don't believe Jesus look like angmo leh.
it's the media that portrays Christ as so, but it can't be that God has a race?


I still remember the time i used to tear during service worship,God's presence is just above all.So glad I went to church :)



A resounding lesson learnt: Have an open heart and fret not,I love my life now with Christ in it,because I can finally see life as a bigger picture.One thing I will never regret, is to love God with all my heart, with all my soul and with all my strength.

I thank Thee, Lord, for sleep and rest,
For all the things that I love best,
Now guide me through another night
And bless my work and bless my play.
Lord, make me strong for noble ends,
Protect and bless my loving friends;
Of all mankind good Christians make.
All this I ask for Jesus' sake. Amen.

Good night people:)

The Book of Ruth

I guess every time I am required to write something I will unknowingly turn it into an essay. haha opinions and thinking should be fully developed if not it's not meaningful yeah?

I read the Book of Ruth with my focus on 2 person- Naomi and Ruth.(well, THEY ARE the "main leads"?)

Naomi

In Ruth 1:13," ...that the hand of the Lord has gone out against me"
in Ruth 1:20 "Do not call me Naomi, call me Mara, for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me.
However, in 2:20 , Naomi said,"Blessed be he of the Lord, who has not forsaken to the living and the dead!"
When things seem bitter and difficult, does it mean God is against us? Maybe there's a plan..God's plan? well, the Bible tells us that the God always have the best plans for us, and certainly being God, He does not need to inform us about His great plans.See things in positive light per se, is that Faith?I ponder.
What I learned from follow up lessons, an important verse in Psalms 34:1 that says "I will bless the Lord at all times, His praise shall continually be in my mouth."
I now know, I should bless the Lord at all times, not only when I feel blessed by the Lord.
Naomi certainly reminded me to thank God for not only the good, but also the bad things in life.

in Ruth 1:21 " I went out full. and the Lord has brought me home again empty."
This verse just totally clicks with the desert song's lyrics that goes" I know I am filled to be emptied again.."
and the thing that Naomi is to do was actually found in that same song "..the seed I received I will sow"
Filling us up, emptying us again. Is this the rhythm Pastor How was referring to? such that God can use us in different ways, in greater ways in time?



RUTH

Ruth3:5 " And she said to her,"All that you say to me I will do"


I admire Ruth's loyalty towards her mother-in-law, the book did not really go into the love shared between Ruth and her husband Mahlon, but not just being respectful during the presence of her husband, her heart of Obedience and loyalty towards Naomi did not just dissolve and fade after Mahlon died.
That brought me to a point,(which is quite no-link?) seeing things through this particular prism, If a women can stay loyal to a women of no real blood relationship, then shouldn't we be even more loyal to the Father who gave us all? If Ruth stays obedient to Naomi because she trusts her, is there reason why we should disobey the Lord? I believe trust and obedience will reap good things in life, just as how Ruth eventually lead a better life.




A short 4-chapter book from the Bible, this is what I feel and what I derived.
Praise to be the Lord:)
Amen.

我已經相信有些人我永遠不必等
所以我明白在燈火闌珊處 為甚麼會哭

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"Infatuation"

Those first few glances irked me
but when you drew closer, I saw that gleam in
those eyes, those understanding windows,
a turbulent rush of emotions,
sorrow amongst many, windows
to another entity altogether.

You remind me of someone
I once knew.

But people tend to like the same kind of people,
not for the people they once knew.

Those defined jaws of strength, and that
euphoria and those moments of sheer joy.
That period redefined the list that made the mark.
That late afternoon, when you wore that simple shirt,
nothing to distract me from your kind smile.

Or was it the attention you gave that drew me?
Those understanding windows.
Repeatedly, until we were attuned to each other.
Distinct individuals with small moments of eye contact.

I saw you again.
And that friendly smile,
and a reciprocal smile.

If only I really knew you.
And if you knew what my smile meant.




What a good poem.

Try reliquishing, you'll gain more.

Emotion is on a roller coaster ride.
very happy and high on Mon,Tue,Wed.
And suddenly I fall from the peak all the way to the bottom.
Worse still, I can't give a loud damn shout to express how much I dislike this feeling.
I've always believe in doing things wholeheartedly cos like what they've always said ," you reap what you sow." I don't want to spent my time in exchange for lamentable,halfhearted results.

But you impacted me so much.
Maybe not that much.
Maybe just a little.
Because I still laugh at people's joke and continue my daily, normal life.
I am not sad.
Sad is such a definite word and doesn't show the kind of mix feelings I am experiencing.
I only want to study.
To let my covetousness for knowledge and results overcome the part of me who constantly is thinking of you.
But i feel like an attention-seeking despot suffering from a serious case of attention deficit disorder, or a chocoholic who can't have his chocolate which is placed right in front of him.
You are exactly my brand of Heroin, but I am gonna kick it.


My old/new commitments will divert my attention,I want to be successful (who doesn't?),I want to spend more time with myself to understand myself more.Create more challenges for myself to test my limits.I want to create a new body for myself, strain my body push it to the limits and challenge the impossible. I want to grow,not physically but mentally and spiritually, not mourn everyday and sulk.That doesn't help and I'll only make myself look like an emotional,inscrutable wretch.
This is just like the withdrawal symptoms smokers face when they are quitting.
It will be over soon after they pop a few Mint Mentos i guess.





whatever written above can sometimes be just bullshit.
sometimes I can be such an ass, posting all these and still look forward to seeing him tonight. ha! girls~~
whatever it is, stay happy and positive.
Suddenly I miss all my girls so much.

Went to the gynecologist today.
Oh and he happens to be the one who see my mummy through labour when I was born!
so cool right?
Well, he said that everything's fine and he excluded the possibility of an infection.
And i was instructed to avoid all kinds of sweet stuffs..ranging from desserts to Milo and not even fruit juice.I really dunno if i am up for it. oh~~

Anyway , I had my first vaccination called the "GARDASIL" today. still got 2 more to go!
it's the one that prevents cervical cancer , and it costs a bomb.
my left arm is like kinda weak now.. hope it will be okay by tmr cos there's napfa test !




Okay , shall stop here and study for tmr's probability test.



Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
--Philippians 4:8

I realized that there's nothing much to be happy about.
I am nothing after all.