累了 不带表不爱了
但死心了 就什么都不必去想了
为了爱 ， 我可以见不得光 ， 我可以忍气吞声， 我可以从有原则变到没有原则， 我可以不管任何人的反对，我可以爱的很傻，很狂，很疯，很不顾一切， 我可以..什么都可以
只要你真心爱我

曾经有人对我这么说过 “Time heals everything”
是我不认输， 才会搞成这样
一直到有人点醒我 她对我说
“不是赢还是输的问题 他不爱你你做什么都不值得”
把信寄出去后， 你收也好， 扔了也罢， 不要在让我看到有关你的东西
我什么都赔上了 笨一次 两次 就够了
你最好成为过去 流泪也需要力气 我累了



不要让人左右你 控制你的情绪
你有权力为自己而快乐
i can do anything and everything for you , until i realized you are no longer in love with me. I lost all the strengths that used to keep me going on.



我没有失恋
我只是看透了一些事情罢了

This is a video of the young bullying the old, don't learn.

I feel lousy .

Japanese St and K golden

Went out with Lynn and Jerron on tuesday!! meet them for dinner at Heeren Japanese street and k box at cineleisure :D
Didn't know there's a japanese street in Heeren, it's actually more of a high-class food court.
with better ambient than the one you can find in north point cause it's obvious they put in alot of effort into decorating the place.
Different sections of the Jap St is of different theme. quite sad i forgot to take any photos ..they serve , of cos , japanese food ..and it's not cheap! i ate a plate of fried seafood-egg-thingy which i can't rmb what exactly is the name . and it cost around 10bucks.
but the experience is quite a good one.
(BJB we can try this man)







Jerron is leaving for Beijing on Monday .. i guess it might be another half a year before i see these two jokers again. haha they are the funniest creatures on Earth! I love them!!!!!


p.s. Aunty Jen is coming my hse later to study and..make sushi !!! can u believe it ? Jennifer = make sushi ?? oh yes and i am so looking forward to the long awaited jurong swimming session / picnic/ work as promoter at CHINESE department ( for me it's a very big deal , cos u know .. 1year nvr touch chinese alr!)/ picnic / batam !!!!!!

but ..my pile of homework assignments on the desk are still staring at me >.<

ugly ducking

i'm now fugly.
removed 14 moles on my face ytd.
yes , it's not 1 , not 4 , but fourteen .

14moles = (6 x 10^23) x 14 paticles (haha no lah)
it's 13moles on my left half of my face and 1 on the right.
it seems like most moles prefer to grow on the left.
can you believe it ?
13 freaking ugly moles on the left side of my face.
like bacteria trying to form colonies.

UGH! it seems like it's all in the genes , my bro gets lots of moles on his face too.
moles can grow all they want at the butt i don't give a damn but no ! leave my face alone!
and there are like holes in my face now and i am so ugly.
i think i m not supposed to go out with this mad ugly face so that i won't scare the hell out of pple.
heard it takes at least 4days before the "dried moles" will "drop off by itself"

besides removing the little black dots that seems to be spreading across my left-half of my face , my acne/pimple/oil/black heads were squeezed out also.
so you can now imagine my beautiful face.
patches of red , holes , un-dried moles in the holes ~~
(shall not upload any picture of it)



I'll stay at home these days :(

SCAM twice + announcements

Is the economy really doing that badly? Ppl trying to cut cost so that what..they can ripped of more profits from their customers?

I was so angry when i bought my waffle from CWP Prima Deli(yes the bakery shop that have poison-cake issue last year). it's a total SCAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i swear their waffle is like 50% thinner than it previously was.
and it's not like.. a coincidence that i got the thin waffle out of the other thick ones.
hello? i bought twice.
and both waffles i got are freaking thin.
i should have just complained and smack the peanut-butter waffle right on the face of the waffle- maker(as face mask)
no wonder i no longer see queues at the waffle counter already.
Their waffle used to be thick, piping hot, and smells heavenly.
now it's pre-cooked (when i requested mine , they took the waffle out from a bag)
atrociously thin and the filling is a very stingy thin layer spread across the waffle.

I'll never buy again!!!!!*roar*



oh yeah dear BJBA , i'm so lazy to sms all of you (and my hp bill last month exploded) so i'll just post our/my plans here.

1.As jy(working) and jessie(holiday) cannot make it on the 28th nov , the picnic outing shall be postponed to the first weekend of dec

2.Any objections please sms me

3.wanted to push forward to this weekend , but glynis's ah ma birthday so cannot.and it's very rush..

4.Jennifer,jy and I will be doing holis homewk at RP this sat cos' we cannot do homewk at home(too many distractions) interested ppl please sms me.

5.Jennifer and Cory i will ask my mum whether we are going JB or not this sun , shall inform u all again.

6.who interested in Jurong swimming (actually is go play , not really swimming) please tell me , i hope we can go next Wednesday (jy starts working next Thursday so have to make it before that)

7.I have worked out the food list for picnic, shall email everyone so just take a look at what you will be responsible for.

8.please relay/tell the other BJ to read my post.













i don't suffer from insanity, i enjoy every minute of it.

look who i offended.

What's wrong with mom?
or should i put my qn in this way :
what's wrong with menopause?

I got home , and saw mom.
she took a look at me with the corner of the eye and continue to do her stuff (as if i m invisible) when i called her.

Thereafter i told her i went for the interview today and i said "they confirm me alr"
this time round , luggy-best , she didn't even look at me as she continue doing her stuffs , as if I've nvr talked (clearly , she's using silence to tell me that 1)i'm not interested about your things 2)i don't see what's there to talk about 3)it's a waste of time to even talk to you


I just don't believe if gor talks to her she will respond LIKE THAT.
like.. wtf?
she say ah ma prejudice against her, or favours my other aunties who are richer..
oh yeah then how about herself? why am i starting to realise the different treatments she give to gor and me ?
WHY?
go NS is your children , nvr go NS not your children?
going America to work is your children , the one staying in Singapore isn't??




我睁一只眼闭一只眼
你越来越过分

*不爽到极点*

random

just came back from interview at tanjong pagar+shopping trip at Bugis with jy.

1.got another interview on next Wednesday at Jurong east
2.may be going science center next Wednesday after the interview by the popular people
3.i spent $20 on clothes today
4. jy spent $80 . she super guilty.
5. i'm facing a dearth of dollars now , freaking poor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH!
6.going chomp chomp tmr with BJBA , shall skip dinner tnight.
7.in good mood today(till now)



Love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning.
It starts with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.

TEMPTED.

KNN I CAN'T STOP MYSELF FROM THINKING

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STOP , BEFORE I LOSE CONTROL OF MYSELF.

you never knew.

I love my PW group.
But i hate PW.
finally! everything ended! with a big "."

F.R.E.E.D.O.M!

yayyyyyyyyyy! :D

no more Saturday with nothing but only PW.
no more RP with nothing but only PW.
NO MORE SEBASTIAN SCOLDING ME "f*ck" and doing obscene act infront of me while rehearsing OP!!!!

i think i gonna miss this PW group(not PW)
out of the 5groups in the class, i think we are the group with most crapping sessions/dirty jokes/sex education(by the guys)/slacking periods/smacking-Sebas-and-laughing-at-YC time. I must say that i enjoyed doing things with these people :)

WenJia , Yanchng , Sebastian and Bengheng(you still owe us 2 icecreams!) , overall, it's still nice working with you all :)
i think i'll still prefer Yanchng to call me " aeh-ded-lin-ah" instead of my usual "adelyn" because i'm so used to it alr! haha!
love you all lots!!!!!


Oh anyway , eldest bro ROM this sunday!!! :D
my dasao will really be my dasao alr! yay! i like her lah! :)
BUT i got no $ and no time to buy clothes.. so i'll just rummage through the closet to find smth decent to wear.
(i got this feeling in the end I'll still wear the black tube dress from batam..but it's okayy. all clothes will look good on pretty people) :D




I've been thinking when i will post this. Maybe once and for all.
after all, it's past tense already.




I loved you
You loved me
I needed you
You needed me
I trusted you
You trusted me

You dumped me
I still loved you
You hurt me
I still needed you
You betrayed me
I stopped trusting you

I hate you
You may hate me, but i don't give a damn about it.

You were so confident that you can have me back whenever you want
you were so sure i still have a thing for you
you were so greedy that you wanted everything
you have no respect for me
you have no respect for her
you have no respect for yourself

are you objectifying me?
eff u , seriously.
you tell me , what qualities do you have to deserve me?
oh yes, I'm not pretty and I'm gigantic and who am i to think i'm superior?
no get it right.
I'm not superior. it's you, you are inferior.


I am not turning back.
I said I am not turning back.
I don't wanna hear u talk.
I don't wanna read anymore messages.
I am stopping all these shit.
I'm not going to say : because you suck.

It's over.That's it.




oh yes your friends didn't know why you left that job.
i know. eff your dishonesty.serve you right. learn your lesson my dear.

you never understand how i feel, never see things in a way that is more in depth,u do things without considerations.
eff your ignorance (not that it's wrong to be under-educated , but it's your choice.& bad choice btw.)

you were so sure i wanted you.no need to elaborate.
eff you for being over confident

you keep changing girlfriends. no that's not wrong. making me a vamp , a third party is.
eff your disrespect for me and your disloyalty to her.

为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得

世界上那么多人
只有我一个人 能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了(你当我傻的啊？）

stop deceiving yourself , the truth is that you don't truly love me.
love isn't like that
you are not something i cannot do without
so it's over.
Time to put an end to it.
The price i paid is huge.
nevertheless I'll move on. and you too.


i used to love you.
i fell in love with you once, twice , thrice.. but along the way, i lost myself.
i realized you will never understand what I'm talking about
it's tough communicating w you cause i have to act as if I'm dumb.
we are from two different world, i am tired from camouflaging myself in your world and behaving as if I'm one of you all.
it's tiring and draining every part of me.

loving you makes me stop loving myself
that's why i love you .. no more.
bye my dearest-ed.



Some point in life, you need friends to help you make decision, or rather, affirm your decision.
I'm glad that early morning i woke up from my own delusion.
i now know how important friends are to me.
when u did something that is rightfully wrong
when u got no one to turn to
when u need someone to reassure and ascertain your decision
Friends are there.

worry worry worry..
HOW?!?
this is even more worrying than sitting for exams..

okay .. no matter what the doctor say, I'm going to deny it downright straight.that's the only way out now.
Goddamn!!


oh please don't let anything happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!