IMPOSSIBLE ITSELF SAYS" I'M POSSIBLE "

2010-10-24T04:59:00.000-07:00

I am so glad to be in the house of God today.
Heart of God church- forever I will stay.

Thinking back, I have been in church since Easter's service, that is like almost 5 months ago.
This 5 months, it wasn't an easy walk.Having to handle schoolwork,fellowship with new church friends,followup..5 months and I've got my own ups and down.

I cannot remember how I came to know God, but things just fall in place when I know I need to go back to service every week.It isn't a routine, It is a rhythm. I remember doubting God, doubting whether He's really there, doubting the kindness of people in church.One thing alleviated me from that situation,that is,faith.
Faith is such an abstract word, so simple and yet difficult to explain.A 5month Old christian would define it as"believing in what you believe in,even if it is something you cannot see at the present"

For me, I started believing in God-bit by bit-then learning how to believe in the God I believe in.
It's not just believing that He is God,we are not (what a cliche) , but rather after coming to Christ, I choose to believe He has a purpose for me in life,He has got plans for me,whatever doubts that are within me,I took the faith to believe sooner or later, God is going to clear my doubts.

One really important verse in the Bible, John 3:16 that goes,
" For God so love the world that He gave his only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life"

before I was saved,
I cannot understand what's with the everlasting life, the difference between Holy spirit,Jesus,and God.
I think Christians are all crazy people-crazy over this God of theirs called Jesus Christ. -_-

To me, Christianity is nothing more than a cross being put up on stage.Haha, but 5 months is all I need to proceed to my next level of spiritual life, to touch the tip of the ice berg in this new relationship with God. God love us all, that He gave(not just sent, but gave)His only son to redeem me and my everlasting life would be to spend my days happily in Heaven and coming to know God :) God moves in different ways in different people's lives.I would say that I am a more happy person than before, more sociable, more accountable for my actions and learn to express my gratitude and love towards all my friends and families.

And, I dunno why, but I really don't believe Jesus look like angmo leh.
it's the media that portrays Christ as so, but it can't be that God has a race?

I still remember the time i used to tear during service worship,God's presence is just above all.So glad I went to church :)

A resounding lesson learnt: Have an open heart and fret not,I love my life now with Christ in it,because I can finally see life as a bigger picture.One thing I will never regret, is to love God with all my heart, with all my soul and with all my strength.

I thank Thee, Lord, for sleep and rest,
For all the things that I love best,
Now guide me through another night
And bless my work and bless my play.
Lord, make me strong for noble ends,
Protect and bless my loving friends;
Of all mankind good Christians make.
All this I ask for Jesus' sake. Amen.

Good night people:)

The Book of Ruth

2010-10-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

I guess every time I am required to write something I will unknowingly turn it into an essay. haha opinions and thinking should be fully developed if not it's not meaningful yeah?

I read the Book of Ruth with my focus on 2 person- Naomi and Ruth.(well, THEY ARE the "main leads"?)

Naomi

In Ruth 1:13," ...that the hand of the Lord has gone out against me"
in Ruth 1:20 "Do not call me Naomi, call me Mara, for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me.
However, in 2:20 , Naomi said,"Blessed be he of the Lord, who has not forsaken to the living and the dead!"
When things seem bitter and difficult, does it mean God is against us? Maybe there's a plan..God's plan? well, the Bible tells us that the God always have the best plans for us, and certainly being God, He does not need to inform us about His great plans.See things in positive light per se, is that Faith?I ponder.
What I learned from follow up lessons, an important verse in Psalms 34:1 that says "I will bless the Lord at all times, His praise shall continually be in my mouth."
I now know, I should bless the Lord at all times, not only when I feel blessed by the Lord.
Naomi certainly reminded me to thank God for not only the good, but also the bad things in life.

in Ruth 1:21 " I went out full. and the Lord has brought me home again empty."
This verse just totally clicks with the desert song's lyrics that goes" I know I am filled to be emptied again.."
and the thing that Naomi is to do was actually found in that same song "..the seed I received I will sow"
Filling us up, emptying us again. Is this the rhythm Pastor How was referring to? such that God can use us in different ways, in greater ways in time?

RUTH

Ruth3:5 " And she said to her,"All that you say to me I will do"

I admire Ruth's loyalty towards her mother-in-law, the book did not really go into the love shared between Ruth and her husband Mahlon, but not just being respectful during the presence of her husband, her heart of Obedience and loyalty towards Naomi did not just dissolve and fade after Mahlon died.
That brought me to a point,(which is quite no-link?) seeing things through this particular prism, If a women can stay loyal to a women of no real blood relationship, then shouldn't we be even more loyal to the Father who gave us all? If Ruth stays obedient to Naomi because she trusts her, is there reason why we should disobey the Lord? I believe trust and obedience will reap good things in life, just as how Ruth eventually lead a better life.

A short 4-chapter book from the Bible, this is what I feel and what I derived.
Praise to be the Lord:)
Amen.

2010-04-01T19:17:00.000-07:00

我已經相信有些人我永遠不必等
所以我明白在燈火闌珊處為甚麼會哭

2010-03-29T03:41:00.000-07:00

CREDITS: http://purefancy.blogspot.com/

"Infatuation"

Those first few glances irked me
but when you drew closer, I saw that gleam in
those eyes, those understanding windows,
a turbulent rush of emotions,
sorrow amongst many, windows
to another entity altogether.

You remind me of someone
I once knew.

But people tend to like the same kind of people,
not for the people they once knew.

Those defined jaws of strength, and that
euphoria and those moments of sheer joy.
That period redefined the list that made the mark.
That late afternoon, when you wore that simple shirt,
nothing to distract me from your kind smile.

Or was it the attention you gave that drew me?
Those understanding windows.
Repeatedly, until we were attuned to each other.
Distinct individuals with small moments of eye contact.

I saw you again.
And that friendly smile,
and a reciprocal smile.

If only I really knew you.
And if you knew what my smile meant.

What a good poem.

Try reliquishing, you'll gain more.

2010-03-26T16:53:00.000-07:00

Emotion is on a roller coaster ride.
very happy and high on Mon,Tue,Wed.
And suddenly I fall from the peak all the way to the bottom.
Worse still, I can't give a loud damn shout to express how much I dislike this feeling.
I've always believe in doing things wholeheartedly cos like what they've always said ," you reap what you sow." I don't want to spent my time in exchange for lamentable,halfhearted results.

But you impacted me so much.
Maybe not that much.
Maybe just a little.
Because I still laugh at people's joke and continue my daily, normal life.
I am not sad.
Sad is such a definite word and doesn't show the kind of mix feelings I am experiencing.
I only want to study.
To let my covetousness for knowledge and results overcome the part of me who constantly is thinking of you.
But i feel like an attention-seeking despot suffering from a serious case of attention deficit disorder, or a chocoholic who can't have his chocolate which is placed right in front of him.
You are exactly my brand of Heroin, but I am gonna kick it.

My old/new commitments will divert my attention,I want to be successful (who doesn't?),I want to spend more time with myself to understand myself more.Create more challenges for myself to test my limits.I want to create a new body for myself, strain my body push it to the limits and challenge the impossible. I want to grow,not physically but mentally and spiritually, not mourn everyday and sulk.That doesn't help and I'll only make myself look like an emotional,inscrutable wretch.
This is just like the withdrawal symptoms smokers face when they are quitting.
It will be over soon after they pop a few Mint Mentos i guess.

whatever written above can sometimes be just bullshit.
sometimes I can be such an ass, posting all these and still look forward to seeing him tonight. ha! girls~~
whatever it is, stay happy and positive.
Suddenly I miss all my girls so much.

2010-03-24T05:43:00.000-07:00

Went to the gynecologist today.
Oh and he happens to be the one who see my mummy through labour when I was born!
so cool right?
Well, he said that everything's fine and he excluded the possibility of an infection.
And i was instructed to avoid all kinds of sweet stuffs..ranging from desserts to Milo and not even fruit juice.I really dunno if i am up for it. oh~~

Anyway , I had my first vaccination called the "GARDASIL" today. still got 2 more to go!
it's the one that prevents cervical cancer , and it costs a bomb.
my left arm is like kinda weak now.. hope it will be okay by tmr cos there's napfa test !

Okay , shall stop here and study for tmr's probability test.

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
--Philippians 4:8

2010-03-23T23:14:00.000-07:00

I realized that there's nothing much to be happy about.
I am nothing after all.

2010-03-21T05:05:00.001-07:00

March Holidays are coming to an end.
I am all geared up so
BRING IT ON!

2010-03-19T18:03:00.000-07:00

以为蒙上了眼睛，就可以看不见这个世界；
以为捂住了耳朵，就可以听不到所有的烦恼；
以为脚步停了下来，心就可以不再远行；
以为我需要的爱情，只是一个拥抱。

2010-03-18T18:57:00.000-07:00

Feels sooooo good to go jogging when everyone is sleeping!
Went for a 45 min jog last night at 10pm, with my new downloaded songs!
sweat it all out ! shiok !
covered quite a distance!
challenge myself a longer one next time :D

2010-03-17T09:10:00.000-07:00

I dunno when will it starts feeling alright again.
Maybe later.
Maybe tomorrow.
Maybe by the end of the year.
Maybe never ever.

Boy I know what are you thinking.
You are as unsure as me : What to do now will be the best?
Whatever decisions you make, I'll follow, without even questioning.
Because I trust you in making the best decision.
And I trust you in deciding what's good for me.
If in the case where the simplest form of friendship is impossible, then let it go.
I am tired.I don't wanna keep saying things like"I give up" and actually still aches in my heart.
I am clear of what and how to achieve my goals now.
you can be sure that I'll be fine.

May God bless you in all the things you do.
Stay firm in your beliefs and do as you promised God and yourself.
Thanks for being such a great friend of mine.

Priorities

2010-03-16T18:42:00.000-07:00

Manifold reasons for me to disqualify myself from the audition.

Sore throat.
No time.
Can't download the right -1 track
What's AJI when your result sucks?

Haha and nope i do not regret giving up this chance.
Just ain't the right time.
YAY! now i can have my chocolates,chill,curry,peanut butter,cookies, and coffee!
Life is already so difficult with all the endless arduous tasks , why make it so bland and restricted?

My time should be well bestowed, not wasted.
Lowest Opportunity Cost incurred :)

2010-03-10T05:17:00.000-08:00

十四天后
希望我会忘记你。

I will remember you always.

2010-03-06T08:16:00.000-08:00

Normally,at this point in time,I will be dying of heartache and drowning in tears.
But apparently I am not.
Maybe I didn't really fall in love?
I am not sure anymore,it doesn't matter now.

My heart ached a little when your message came, the first time you showed me that you need me.It aches not because I had to leave, it aches because I know it's codependency and not love, not like how I feel towards you.From your last message, I know this is the end of our friendship,because you gave up after I take a step back.
This is gonna hurt, but I am all cushioned.I protected myself subconsciously.

Let time ease everything.I have my dreams,you have your plans for the future.
unhealthy relationships spoil all plans and smash dreams.
Ironic isn't it?
we require the company of each other but things just don't work out.
I am sure I can get you out of my mind, albeit unwillingly,
because firstly,I can't give without expecting returns,you are just unable to reciprocate my love.
Secondly,I don't see a point of staking my future with something so abstract and uncertain,something that seems to exist and not exist at the same time.
Thirdly,I know that you won't, and never will, love me back.If there's even hope,I'll hang on there.But no, I am not positive.I won't be, and have no responsibility to be there for you always.To have dinner with you even if I've already eaten,to buy you herbal tea when you are down with fever,to jeopardize my study plans and rush back home from school just to see you for 30mins.
Lastly,I want to sin no more,we will be condemned and persecuted by Him soon if this continues.

Let's cool down.
You will be fine.
I will be okay.
Things will go back to normal as I 100percent devote myself to studying for A lvls.

you were a great friend, soul mate.But not suitable as a lover.
Thanks for cheering me up when I was down and discouraged.
Thanks for being there to help in my studies.
Thanks for all the wonderful memories you left.
Thanks for teaching me a lot of things and changing how I view life.
Thanks for motivating me all the time.
Thanks for making me laugh all the time we went out together.
Thanks for your reminders that life is fragile, live and give while you can, be grateful that you're alive now.
Last but not least, Thanks for showing me the way to get closer to Father Lord.

You will be the standard.
In the future, every guy i meet will inevitably be compared to you,and will likely be inferior.
I see a bleak future in terms of relationships.

I will remember you always.

2010-02-15T17:50:00.000-08:00

I am in trouble.
life is in a mess.
I am losing control , losing grip.
I am still not doing anything to make sure things turn out fine.
I am still having fun all day.
I am going to fail everything if this continue.
I need someone to talk some sense into me.
I can't do it alone.
I've tried.

2010-02-13T16:19:00.000-08:00

I am so lucky to find someone who clicks so much with me :)
what a dream come true.

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines' day everyone!
God bless ya!

2010-02-12T19:31:00.000-08:00

A promise to myself:
I am going to study hard and do all that I can to achieve what I want.

Math is not going to be standing in the way.
I won't allow that to happen.
and organic chemistry is easy.
It's only memory work.
can't be that hard.

It all lies in the mind.
stay positive.
work hard.

2010-02-09T13:29:00.000-08:00

I have no idea why
I've got no idea how

u make me smile all the time
:)

continue dreaming

White Horse Lyrics

2010-02-07T02:32:00.000-08:00

Say you’re sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
‘Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin’ on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should’ve known, I should’ve known

That I’m not a princess
This ain’t a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I’m not a princess
This ain’t a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I’m so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it’s too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It’s too late
To catch me now.

2010-02-05T16:07:00.001-08:00

I am thinking of buying treats for 2309 for vday and cny!
what should i get?!
life has been the same , rewind play , rewind play , rewind play.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
boreddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
oh yeah and just being random , i think singlish's cool ! :D

if you prefer to shut away,
be my guest.
CAN'T YOU SEE I AM TIRED

2010-02-02T23:55:00.000-08:00

Everyone knows how to complicate things
but it seriously takes the smart ones to simplify complicated matters.

I am still trying to learn
to practice what I've preached.

2010-02-01T03:55:00.001-08:00

什么也不想。
好累。

2010-01-30T04:20:00.000-08:00

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I think of you whenever I was left alone
whenever it starts ,I cry on my own.
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever.

2010-01-29T01:45:00.001-08:00

no time to deal with emotional stuffs.
STRESS!

I just feel like singing my lungs out now :(

Can I have 42 hours a day instead?

2010-01-26T02:54:00.000-08:00

I am so tired every single day that I can't feel myself anymore.
screw that Coco for creating mess for me to clear up after him.
and damn i think I've got lots of revision to be done , especially chemistry.
oh yeah and don't say I kaisu, just bought a whole set of Bio Prelim papers from other JCs.
I am just trying to add some stress to myself to spur me on.
I got no motivation. and no time . and no life .
I am so busy every single day that I don't know what's happening around me anymore.

okay enough of emo-thingy.
Saw Wb's blog posts in 2007 . The msn one . laugh till my sides hurts . Sound like some puppy love! :D OPPS! SORRY ~ well that was 2007 lah. haha i think it never crossed his mind that I can be so Kpo and resourceful ..MUAHAHAHAHA..

I told 'cha long before what's gonna happen, and I am not surprised at all.
reminder to self: whatever it is,stay unaffected.

One fine saturday morning

2010-01-22T17:37:00.000-08:00

okayy.
The moment i started writing this post , my brother who is sleeping on the bed behind me just farted.great.

This week has been so busy!
Well , today's flag day is cancelled due to poor responses.
I am now all prepared to go RP and mug , after which will be going Ion to shop with Jennifer and Jy and will be eating dinner with Pw mates tonight :D
WE ARE BONDED SEE!?

ran 2.4km twice this week.
timing 14:10 which is 13secs slower than last year.
and it's 10 secs to an A -_-
gonna run faster next PE.

oh dunno how will Pw ppl react tonight,seeing me first time with my make up :x

-agree with Merlyn Jie that Baby breath are so beautiful! :)
-Coco loves BBQ chicken wings!
-stop raining please!
-Why do I always see Cory leaving school earlier than me? Susan Leong doesn't like me :(

Show time!

2010-01-20T03:38:00.000-08:00

Hi dear all,
my fb account is deactivated so you all will no longer see the noisy adelyn on fb.
fb is too time consuming and addictive.
I am not going to risk my A levels and being controlled by a social network -.-
okay so i 狠心 closed it :(

well..it's temporary, i'll be back i promise , perhaps during holidays or what.
and this blog is gonna be updated at most once a week.at most , i stress.

I am turning on my engine.
and i am serious.
I will show you what Adelyn is made up of.

The very substance of the ambitious is merely the shadow of a dream.

2010-01-18T02:15:00.000-08:00

你是否想过你现在正在忙得一切到底是为了什么？
每个人都向着目标迈进虽然每个人要的都不同。
你的生命，有你去决定应该是怎样。
若它失败，你却又努力过，那你没错。
可如果它败在你空想却不做，或根本懒得去想，那么。。我看不起你。

每个人都有理想吧？就算我们不谈"AMBITION"这么遥远，这么强的字眼，那在人生的每个阶段，总也有个目标， “AIM" 吧？

发明星梦的努力学唱歌，跳舞，演戏
想做lifeguard 就去报名life saving courses.
要拿车的驾照就去读theory, 学，然后考
要当兵的就去train up.
要花钱，就要去赚钱
想考大学的努力读书，练习，去fine tune 一切的不完美
知道自己要什么的人就去追求想要的东西
不知道自己要什么的人就去寻找打听想想 “我的目标是什么?”
现在的自己是不是应该在做些什么？有些东西，现在不做，以后就没有时间，精力，机会去做。
不现在开始追求你想要的，你会后悔吗？
相信我，你会。

我们的年龄，什么都没有，最多的就是我刚刚说的：
时间，精力，机会。
坐着不想的人，注定什么也没有；
想了不去做的人，永远只差成功那么一小步。

希望自己快快长大，也要懂大人的世界是怎么处理问题。
要拥有一个人，也要给她看到你有资格。

Ambitious
decisiveness
diligence
enthusiasm
perseverance
maturity
self discipline
self confidence
self control.

这样就有资格。

“Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.”-Thomas Jefferson

“I do not fear failure. I only fear the "slowing up" of the engine inside of me which is pounding, saying, "Keep going, someone must be on top, why not you?" -General George S. Patton

2010-01-17T02:57:00.000-08:00

I like it the way it is now :)

you said when you are talking to me, you will not lie.
i trust that.

2010-01-16T17:25:00.000-08:00

why is Monday so far away from Friday and Friday so near to Monday?
There's PE tmrw! gonna sweat like mad.

and OMG last week i spent only 2.70$ on food in school.
how incredible is that :D
I am a super bread woman surviving on bread alone!
I wanna save a lot a lot of money :D That's my new aim!

冷暴力搞定你治好你的病

2010-01-16T03:40:00.000-08:00

I have no idea why I am so angry over such a small matter.
Put myself in your shoes.
I think, will be better.

Every time you start emoing

I am being totally KPO.

2010-01-15T00:48:00.000-08:00

I've got two girlfriends , let's call them A and B.
Both A and B have been complaining to me about their boyfriends these days and coincidentally , both of them quarreled with their bfs yesterday.
Their situations are very different from one another though.

A's situation:
"my bf changed!", she claimed.
"He used to chat with me over the phone till I am willing to go to bed and he doesn't do that anymore. When I wanna talk to him he goes "can i go to sleep? i am very tired already can i go to sleep?!" "
A also told me that his bf is being paranoid. Everytime she asked about his whereabout and plans later , he'll be very frustrated and goes "You think I wanna be at this XXX meh? I also dunwan one what it's just that they caught me for meeting what can i do ! is it my fault!!!??? " or "you can don't ask not!? can you give me some time of my own?!"

A few months ago, A was seen talking happily over the phone every break/lunch time，I still remember that time I was quite "OMG" with her 撒娇content over the phone. It seems like the guy is finally losing interest in this superglue relationship already.Not entirely his fault i guess.
A said she did asked her bf in the past if he finds her too "sticky" , but her bf said "NVM i like"
I think A doesn't know that it means "I don't mind now because you are my new gf and you are so cute" That does not mean he's gonna be like that forever. you can't expect a guy to treat you the same way like how he had treated you in the honeymoon period after like..say 3years.
Obviously A's relationship is not 3year old, in fact , i heard 28th this month is their 1year anniversary. Their honeymoon period lasted for like 8months , which from my point of view is already considerably long.(My past relationship don't even last 3months , not to mention honeymoon period)
A cannot accept it when i told her the fact : Guys change in a relationship once the honeymoon period is over. It's just a matter of how long or short it is. You can't expect him to remain the same(that's only possible if your bf is Kenneth). So long as he remains not-too-bad , you are considered quite lucky already.
Don't stick around too much , leave him alone to think about it ..and for you to think about it.

B's situation:
"He keeps on accusing me that I do not care about him because I don't talk to him over the phone at night everyday like how I used to"
B is busy with a lot of school work and her CCA is hectic , I bet she's like me , sleep deprived.
she told me this morning that " he called me ytd ask why can't I chat with him and help share some of him problems.. wth I am so busy I don't even have time for myself and I can't even solve my own problems where on earth do i find time to share his problem?!"

my stand is : B is at wrong.
B shouldn't have talked to him over the phone every night in the past.
you are spoiling him and now he has got the habit of talking to you every night before you turn in to bed , and any phone conversations at any other time of the day does not count.(wtf? too demanding and immature?)
It's not his fault that he needs someone to share his problems. B is his gf and that is indeed her job. But her bf could have been more understanding , her gf is dying of exhaustion already do you still bear to have her stay up late just to listen to your complaints ? Everyone has problems,why not solve them yourself instead of adding more burden to someone's life?

I think I am more like B.
Being possessive is such a nono
not chatting over the phone for a few days is not going to kill anyone.
The relationship is already almost 3 years old.
It should be stable and not easily affected by such minor stuffs, yet the guy acts like a pussy and kicking a fuss over it.
okay, if she's your new gf maybe still understandable.
perhaps B understands the theory more:
The better you treat a guy, the more you stick around , the more sick he will be of you(sooner of later).
The one who loves the least, controls the relationship.-Dr. Robert Anthony

This is funny. Two girls , completely different personality in love.
one bo chup , one chup too much.

-A's bf already apologised , but B and I asked her not to forgive him so easily.
-B told me she agreed to be his gf because her mom likes this guy. which totally doesn't make sense. Ask your mom to go steady with this guy instead.

update!

2010-01-14T02:00:00.000-08:00

face everything with a smile! :D
today my mood is beautiful !Because I finally can get to go home earlier than any other days of the week ..and that means.. I can sleep early tonight!!!!!! YAY! Adelyn's such a sleep deprived sadist :(

I had so much energy during PE today that I TRULY RAN .
haha 1+6 rounds today!
next week onwards there's "pre-napfa".
I think AJ PE department is out to get us.
whatever..it's nice to sweat it all out anyways :)

One super old picture that's in my phone and not uploaded. Oh glynis is so cute with bangs!

My fresh blood.My finger bled today :( me and my itchy hands..
BUT.
Blood makes me excited.
(okay , this sounds SO sick)

-FJY ,when are we going to go to science centre ?! before the thing's gone!!! :(

2010-01-13T03:47:00.000-08:00

it's 7.47pm.
8pm I am so going to do my bio tutorial , because teacher wants it by tmrw.
Why am i doing all the last minute thingy this year? OMG cannot cannot ><"
stop procrastinating.

My left eye is twitching really fast right now.
something good gonna happen ? :D
maybe Bio rep will sms me at 7.59pm and say Bio tutorial deadline is next week instead.
haha. FAT HOPE.

I feel like a glutton today.
I ate so much carbohydrate today. bread , bread , bread , biscuits , bun ,
I AM GOING TO GROW FAT LIKE THIS.
now conference with lynn , zk and kok .
this bunch is crazy. LOL!

for my 细水长流

2010-01-12T01:30:00.000-08:00

i am so happy for you my dear!
i hope your love blossom!
he's kinda cute too :)
i dun know why but i feel happy inside , for you :D hope things work!

very first day of school

2010-01-11T08:48:00.000-08:00

late on the very first day of school , thanks to a last-minute stomachache.
school was .. .. great.
i can see the year 2010 is a very tiring one.
god damn it.
now it's 12.50am and I have not even started my bio tutorial which is DUE TMR.
haven memorize chemistry which is TESTED TMR. and to hell with maclaurin's series.
i am all breathless after the 2.4km run. it proves that stamina don't last through the holidays.
I feel the stress rolling in , on the very first day of school.

I wanted to mug , so badly.
Not because i love mugging , it's because it provides a sense of security.
I remained silent and kept a distance , for a reason no one will understand.

2010-01-10T02:24:00.000-08:00

我有说不出口的苦衷。
making things simple right now is the best for me.
I've got many tasks ahead.

也许保持一段好的距离会比较好，对你，对我。

I don't look at your eyes because you always look hurt.

Match making session :)

2010-01-07T17:57:00.000-08:00

went out with Wb,Zk(ZiKang) and lynn ytd !:)
we went K box at cineleisure 8th floor.
I woke up at 7am in the morning just to do some boring household chores and only started preparing myself for the Matchmaking session,for AHEM AHEM the two of them, at 11.30am.
As usual, I was late.That's not a thing worth to mention right? It will only be a BIG thing if I am NOT late. Lynn and I got so high after 2 house whiskey(is it whiskey? i can't rmb , lynn ordered it) each..okay maybe not that high, but good enough to make us scream and be hack care about unglam-ness.

after which we went Spinelli at Heeren because lynn said she wants cheesecake.
I had iced chocolate and we played Big2.
This is how the game goes, when someone finished off his/her last card, the one with the most card among the rest will be the loser.
Loser will be playing truth or dare.The thing is that you can't choose,you have to alternate between the two (for e.g. if the last time you lost you played truth, then the second time u lose you will have to play dare)
And i thought I was made a fool cause my dare was the most daring one . the others all hum ji.

I was made to go to the street (around the O chang'kee there) with around 20 spinelli customers infront of me and shout across them all such that maniacs from MY TABLE can hear me shouting"我很开心！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！ "

THE TRUTH IS THAT 我一点都不开心！！！！！
EVERYONE(i swear it was everyone , every single customer of spinelli , was looking at me)
WTF?!

lol i did it anyway.
At the end of it still got some ppl cheer for me :D
Who is that kind soul? I want your number ! lol!
That's really a test of my limit, but after ytd night i think my limit can be pushed further. haha..
(and actually i shouted "孔纹彬, 我很开心！！" )
another dare was to la ji with.....wb?!?!?!
LOL I know WB will not agree so i told lynn "i okay one but u see the other part not willing i no choice" (haha i very 贱 just like that escape from one dare)

actually wanted WB to do the same thing I did, just that he had to shout
"I AM A VIRGIN!" instead.

But we got so paiseh for him even before he shouts, in the end ask him come back to the table we change dare for him. haha! so instead of shouting across the cafe , he was made to go to the other table of 4 teenage girls and tell them "I am a virgin!" MUAHAHAHAHAHA!! that's not as embarrassing right ?
Lynn was made to finish off half her cheesecake in 2 bites. and that's like super 放水？！Grrr..unfair! should have asked her to pluck her fake lashes down on the spot(since she said her make up ytd was PERFECT.) i should have asked her to remove her lashes on one eye and leave the other untouched. I think that will look hilarious *Evil grins*
The game ended with Wb and Zk drinking our homemade-left over iced chocolate and latte.
haha i heard my special brew was more disgusting than lynn's even though she added alot more things in.
haha this is what i call pro :P
Zk drank mine --> Iced chocolate blended with alot of Tabasco sauce,salt, black pepper and my fav spice , cinnamon powder. I tried cinnamon bread before and it suck so badly that I've since ban cinnamon in my food. The guys had a good wash of their stomach and intestines after drinking that , more high than drinking whiskey! :D

Then, we went to Mac at LP, and chat quite a little.
Suddenly we started the arm wrestling competition.okay, Wb is the strongest , but I am not the weakest okay ? Lynn is :) (I got muscle one!)
oh and i need to apologize(though not sincerely because you told me to and it's because you did that to wb also) to zikang for removing KOK from the no.1 rank in the slappers list.
DON'T UNDERESTIMATE ME! 我打人可是啪啪响，不痛不打 :D

Wb sent me to the doorstep just because i said i wanted to walk home.
Sweet stuffs no need to share right? it's only for me and myself (:
All i can say is Wb is a 木头。

-off to do homework(it's Friday alr omg!)
-photos are available on FB!

2010-01-05T04:31:00.000-08:00

Bro leaving for US at 3am!
:( OMG so 舍不得。
The house only mum and me left..
so weird.
the house used to be so crowded.
even dad's room is all cleared up and painted, what's left is a wardrobe.
I'll be taking care of mum,Coco，household chores, and studies.
I can,I will.

聽媽媽的話　別讓她受傷
想快快長大　才能保護她

-I am starting to look forward to school reopening, I feel like mugging madly now. god help me I'm sick.

2010-01-04T05:11:00.000-08:00

I don't like this.
I feel so controlled now.
I can't breathe.
Can I just run and not look back ?

update

2010-01-03T02:28:00.000-08:00

Mum's toe bone broken ..again.
There's work for her tmr and maybe i have to be there to help her out and study at the same time.
This is getting kinda crazy and stressful.
My homework all not yet done and there's so many things that needs me to be around.
*(*#%^@#%!#$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
escape from the namo amitabha thingy one third through the whole session today.
This chanting session at expo hall 2 is crazy.
How long can their breath get?!?! sounds like R&B to me .
Supposed to end at 9.30pm , 三十六计走为上策。

AHEM. I KNOW YOU JUST CHANGED YOUR BLOGSKIN.
and it is very loud.
*paiseh*
omg and I am sorry am i the one that caused you to sleep so late ytd ?
Sorry I dozed off & you know what ? you should be angry about it, although i know that you won't.
you will never get angry at me.<- good point and bad point at the same time.

ohkay! dad's room gonna get painted all over again.
Most of the things disappeared.
great. one week's effort paid off.

-need to cut my fringe, I am very irritated.
A curtain is covering my world and that sucks.
(finally understand how jieying feels)

let me spend my remaining one week the way i want it to be , please.

2010-01-02T06:44:00.000-08:00

slack my whole day off today.
so annoyed with P&C!!!
@#%*o&^#$%!@$!!!

There's f*cking lots of homework untouched.
don't even dare think of revision.
OMG how to start JC2 ?!?!?!?!
and i am starting to gain weight.. T.T
i think i should give myself a list of new year resolution.
hmmm.. yes i should.
but before that , i should go and finish P&C tutorial .
Tonight , P&C , 跟你拼个你死我活！

当每个人问起你，我的心怪怪的

有缘的话一定会在一起

2010-01-01T07:15:00.000-08:00

I don't know if I've hurt you by giving you a glimpse of hope in the past.
After several thoughts, I decided that it is only right to devote myself to my studies this year,2010.
If you understood what I've said, you will know it's all for your own good.
I don't want to disappoint someone so nice.
If you were those 臭男人 around me, I would have just tell them to back off.
but you are different.

I asked Ma why our relatives and herself seem to like you a lot.
Ma said " he's the kind of guy that will wait for you quietly, help you quietly, accompany you quietly no matter you are sick or sad. This kind of guy.. good."
I would want you to know,
you are such a nice person.
So nice that it takes me a lot of time to think of explanations to my decision.

You accompanied me when I was ill,
you showered me with care and love.
You sat silently by my side when you know I am torn apart because of dad's sudden death,
you looked at me in the eyes but you don't speak, and yet it tells a lot.

"All i want to let you know is that i am here for you, whenever you need me.
even if you need me for five minutes to let you rant on life, on stuff that has been bad for you."

Anything.

I will do anything you make you happy.

You are a good guy.A really good guy.
And I can't bear to let you wait for it is equivalent to sufferings.
I know that tying you down will be very tiring, for both of us.
I want to put in my 100%, as i said, it's my responsibility.

Waiting would means spending a year of your life. ONE FULL YEAR.
it's not as easy as you think it would be.
Along the way, you will lose interest because of the increasing distance.
You will start to doubt yourself and your decision to wait for me.
You will be put off because I won't be able to find time for myself, much less for you.
You will get disappointed gradually.
And I can't bear to let someone who treated me so well endure such emotional trauma.No I can't.

I have no confidence in myself.
I can't promise I'll be there after a year.
So I told you , you are free to go.
I can't promise to give you anything in return and it will be too selfish to keep you hanging there.
I understand there is a limit to everything.
If we are not meant to be,even if you insist on waiting, someone or something will still pull you away from the track which leads to me.If we are meant to be, a year would be no big deal, and nothing in this world can interfere with this affinity between us.

Ma said something which I thought made sense.
I can't tell you for it distorts your decision making.
she ended with " ...只有这种男人，你要紧紧抓住"
我懂了。

-thanks for being so supportive, attentive , considerate, gentle and loving :) there's no need for us to say so many things , time tells.

True love stands the test of time.

2009-12-28T05:35:00.000-08:00

It feels good to be doted on,
to be taken care of,
to be precious once again.
but at times i wonder, will I (AN ORDINARY GIRL) take things for granted?
will I look out for weaknesses despite the obvious strengths?
will I give tons of reasons and excuses just to avoid that responsibility?
will I stay the way I am?
will I change?
will I feel tired from what used to seem so right?
will I lose the ability to set priorities?

I understand myself the best.
I will not risk my studies,my future.
I've not recovered.
I don't wanna disappoint mom.
This is selfish but there isn't other alternative.
This might sound bad but , if one day you finally realized I am not worth the wait,you are free to go.I might regret saying this , doing it , because i missed someone i knew might just be the one.

what is mine, will be mine.
what is not, never will.

UPDATE

2009-12-26T23:20:00.000-08:00

headache.
headache.
headache.
headache.
headache.
i hate taking Panadols all the time.

collecting passport tomorrow!
and shop for xmas exchange presents for BJBA
and maybe going Singapore flyer.
wonder if someone will turn jelly?

2009-12-26T07:39:00.000-08:00

I've got no choice.
I need time.
maybe a month , maybe a year.
how long can u wait?

我不想绑着你

you live in my heart,my childhood,my memory, in me.

2009-12-26T04:28:00.000-08:00

Ever since pa left , I realized how tiring his life was.
work 12hours a day
$480 allowance for us each month

my dad was a helpful man
he's not afraid of hassle as long as it's within his ability he will help whoever that needs him
he's poor , not because he don't earn it's because he don't manage his finance

my dad is obstinate
he doesn't listen to us till all the things went wrong
but he doted on us , especially me.

why can i do sports fairly well?
because dad trained me since young
i can cycle at 5,
swim at 7,
hike and play taiji at 8
fish at 10,
because dad taught me how.

we neglected him.
he neglected us, in one way or another.
when someone leaves you,
suddenly all the memories sink in
the way he talks
repeat and repeat
what he said which we thought was ridiculous
his eyes
his hair
his feet
his palms

Pa's room is left untouched
except the clothing which he should have received by now
he should come back tonight , or tomorrow.
i wanted to sprinkle flour on the floor in his room
but mom said I'll be disappointed if there's nothing.
maybe dad went to heaven already
or maybe dad forgot his keys again

my memory of pa in my childhood is strong,vivid,unforgettable.
i was so close to him,
i used to.
i used to think pa is a hero that will save me whenever i am in danger or when there's fear
when i was a kid, i was afraid of spirits and ghosts.
i'll cover pa's blanket over me and i'll tell myself ,
with pa's blanket, no one can harm me.
it's that sense of security he gave.

i used to pout when people say i look really like my dad
cos' obviously ma got stronger features.
but now, when aunt said " now, if we miss dad , we will look at you."
i actually felt good and proud.
i resemble someone kindhearted,
someone who gave me life,
someone who inherited me my height which i am proud of,
someone who taught me things i don't learn in school,
someone who made my childhood fun and so memorable,
someone who earn money by working 12hours a day to give me food
someone who massages my leg when i complained about standing too long at work
someone whom i called papa.

下辈子做个好命人。

100 things you must know about Adelyn Lim.

2009-12-25T08:26:00.000-08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Plain warm water
2. Last phone call: the police(i am not kidding)
3. Last text message: weilee
4. Last song you listened to: yu ren de guo du-sunyanzi
5. Last time you cried: just now

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes
7. Been cheated on:yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope.
9. Lost someone special: yes.
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up:haha shhhhh don't tell anyone

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. brown
13. gold
14. baby pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: yes
17. Laughed until you cried: nope
18. Met someone who changed you: yes, by breaking my heart.
19. Found out who your true friends were: this is definitely a YES!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: YUP
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: -.- who the fuck will go and count?
23. How many kids do you want to have: 3 or 4 ? Singapore govt loves me.
24. Do you have any pets: yes!! Hamster and my cute COCO <3
25. Do you want to change your name: Thought of it , but nvm it's too late.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: study and preparing for exams.
27. What time did you wake up today: 6am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: giving pa big big house and money
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: go out to work , let ma enjoy life .
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 3hours ago ?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: be more hardworking as a student,a daughter,a sister,a friend.
32. What are you listening to right now: kiss the rain
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah with dick and harry.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing ?
35. Most visited webpage : facebook
36. Whats your real name: Lim Hui Shan
37. Nicknames: shanshan , ade
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: libra
40. Male or female?: female body , man's heart.
41. Elementary?: Siling Primary
42. Middle School?: Ahmad ibrahim sec
43. High school/college?: AJC
44. Hair colour: ash brown
45. Long or short: okay i am sick , i am thinking of smth else. whatever it is , long :)
46. Height: 175cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: I don't believe in crush.
48: What do you like about yourself?: i think far ahead.
50. Tattoos: Noo , i wanna get married . and bride with tattoos just look SO WRONG
51. Righty or lefty: Rightly

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: i'll tell u next time when i get one
53. First piercing: 2months old
54. First best friend: Poh Jia Wen from slps
55. First sport you joined: netball
56. First vacation: Genting with mum ?
58. First pair of trainers: none

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: air
60. Drinking: air (fuck because i got bloated stomach again)
61. I'm about to: hang the clothes and go to bed
62. Listening to: River flows in you
63. Waiting on: for question no.100

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: YEAH!! 2boys 1 girl :)
65. Get Married?: Yeap. women over age of 30 will PMS if still unmarried.
66. Career?: professionals ? i want my own theme cafe.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: i like good kisser , who doesn't? :D
69. Shorter or taller: I am proud of my height
70. Older or Younger: older. if not how mom retire?
71. Romantic or spontaneous: former
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms , cos i think my stomach is nice already *proud*
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: nope
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: u reminded me i lost my one-week old spects at khatib stadium
79. Sex on first date: no wtf?
80. Broken someone's heart: yeap.
82. Been arrested: for being too mugger?
83. Turned someone down: yea
84. Cried when someone died: madly.
85. Fallen for a friend?: yea .

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes.
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: no
89. Heaven: yea
90. Santa Claus: any fat man with red robes,white gloves and a bag of presents over his shoulder is Santa.
91. Kiss on the first date: yes
92. Angels: no . i am cheena .

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: nope
95. Did you sing today?: yes , in shower.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: all the way back , to where pa is with me i'll treat him better.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? : i only look forward.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes. because who you gave your heart to might just betray you. when you found out what u used to believe in is all a coax,lies,fake acts , it fucking hurts.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? no , it's 100 things you must know about Adelyn Lim.

2009-12-20T21:20:00.001-08:00

这次我可不可以不坚强。

2009-12-20T00:19:00.000-08:00

再这样下去我会欠你很多
你给我好大的压力

2009-12-13T05:47:00.000-08:00

after we bid Cory goodbye at the station ,
i am damn embarrassed!

-with my dead look.

2009-12-09T03:05:00.000-08:00

Mission for today:

Sort the pile of paper into respective files
finish 2AQs
Plan tmr's activity
Laugh at JY for slogging like a bull today.

new love: 愚人的国度！！

Life's good with them :)

2009-12-04T04:16:00.000-08:00

My holidays are packed.
There isn't enough time to do what i want/do what i have to..

so..as usual , i plan my scarce holidays just like how i planned for revision schedule months before a major exam. hais i can't imagine when school reopens i'm a J2 and taking A levels (the thought of it scares me)

Went K student with zhiheng , Kenny and Yanchng my lesfren!
it's fun cos' zhiheng is there, he's like .. a born joker!
And Jennifer, you rmb i told you he actually sound like yoga? okay the singing is not that perfect obviously but he DOES sound like him. LOL! Apparently , blogger does not allow me to upload the voice clip so i'll play it next time for you.
(All the photos are in facebook! -->took pictures of ZH's hilarious poses!)

Today went Cineleisure to watch Case39 with the Interact Sweeties :D
didn't take alot of pics cos' yixian forget to bring camera (not seng-mok enough)
but they are very sweet! they brought along my birthday present!
like.. BIRTHDAY PRESENT !! haha it's better to be 2 months late than never :)
they bought me a penguin umbrella which is pink in colour(they saw me squeezing with xiying under one umbrella during rainy days) and a duckie which they say ..resembles me , head sticking out during lecture. (Supeng said " i always see u during lecture one , too outstanding already , no one sticks out her head during lecture except you .")

AHEM ! that's because i'm trying to see more clearly to grasp the idea okay ?! lol
The following will mainly be the duckie and myself . haha was very happily zi lian -ing.

Shufen and me! (we are the only ones who love camwhoring)

Meet MR duckie!!
okay, I try to position it to look somewhat like what they said-->me during lecture, head sticking out.

How i love fake lashes!!!

Cheena doll with Duckie

2009-11-30T06:12:00.000-08:00

累了不带表不爱了
但死心了就什么都不必去想了
为了爱，我可以见不得光，我可以忍气吞声，我可以从有原则变到没有原则，我可以不管任何人的反对，我可以爱的很傻，很狂，很疯，很不顾一切，我可以..什么都可以
只要你真心爱我

曾经有人对我这么说过 “Time heals everything”
是我不认输，才会搞成这样
一直到有人点醒我她对我说
“不是赢还是输的问题他不爱你你做什么都不值得”
把信寄出去后，你收也好，扔了也罢，不要在让我看到有关你的东西
我什么都赔上了笨一次两次就够了
你最好成为过去流泪也需要力气我累了

不要让人左右你控制你的情绪
你有权力为自己而快乐
i can do anything and everything for you , until i realized you are no longer in love with me. I lost all the strengths that used to keep me going on.

我没有失恋
我只是看透了一些事情罢了

This is a video of the young bullying the old, don't learn.

2009-11-27T00:36:00.000-08:00

2009-11-26T20:28:00.000-08:00

I feel lousy .

Japanese St and K golden

2009-11-25T18:55:00.000-08:00

Went out with Lynn and Jerron on tuesday!! meet them for dinner at Heeren Japanese street and k box at cineleisure :D
Didn't know there's a japanese street in Heeren, it's actually more of a high-class food court.
with better ambient than the one you can find in north point cause it's obvious they put in alot of effort into decorating the place.
Different sections of the Jap St is of different theme. quite sad i forgot to take any photos ..they serve , of cos , japanese food ..and it's not cheap! i ate a plate of fried seafood-egg-thingy which i can't rmb what exactly is the name . and it cost around 10bucks.
but the experience is quite a good one.
(BJB we can try this man)

Jerron is leaving for Beijing on Monday .. i guess it might be another half a year before i see these two jokers again. haha they are the funniest creatures on Earth! I love them!!!!!

p.s. Aunty Jen is coming my hse later to study and..make sushi !!! can u believe it ? Jennifer = make sushi ?? oh yes and i am so looking forward to the long awaited jurong swimming session / picnic/ work as promoter at CHINESE department ( for me it's a very big deal , cos u know .. 1year nvr touch chinese alr!)/ picnic / batam !!!!!!

but ..my pile of homework assignments on the desk are still staring at me >.<

ugly ducking

2009-11-20T17:35:00.000-08:00

i'm now fugly.
removed 14 moles on my face ytd.
yes , it's not 1 , not 4 , but fourteen .

14moles = (6 x 10^23) x 14 paticles (haha no lah)
it's 13moles on my left half of my face and 1 on the right.
it seems like most moles prefer to grow on the left.
can you believe it ?
13 freaking ugly moles on the left side of my face.
like bacteria trying to form colonies.

UGH! it seems like it's all in the genes , my bro gets lots of moles on his face too.
moles can grow all they want at the butt i don't give a damn but no ! leave my face alone!
and there are like holes in my face now and i am so ugly.
i think i m not supposed to go out with this mad ugly face so that i won't scare the hell out of pple.
heard it takes at least 4days before the "dried moles" will "drop off by itself"

besides removing the little black dots that seems to be spreading across my left-half of my face , my acne/pimple/oil/black heads were squeezed out also.
so you can now imagine my beautiful face.
patches of red , holes , un-dried moles in the holes ~~
(shall not upload any picture of it)

I'll stay at home these days :(

SCAM twice + announcements

2009-11-19T00:46:00.000-08:00

Is the economy really doing that badly? Ppl trying to cut cost so that what..they can ripped of more profits from their customers?

I was so angry when i bought my waffle from CWP Prima Deli(yes the bakery shop that have poison-cake issue last year). it's a total SCAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i swear their waffle is like 50% thinner than it previously was.
and it's not like.. a coincidence that i got the thin waffle out of the other thick ones.
hello? i bought twice.
and both waffles i got are freaking thin.
i should have just complained and smack the peanut-butter waffle right on the face of the waffle- maker(as face mask)
no wonder i no longer see queues at the waffle counter already.
Their waffle used to be thick, piping hot, and smells heavenly.
now it's pre-cooked (when i requested mine , they took the waffle out from a bag)
atrociously thin and the filling is a very stingy thin layer spread across the waffle.

I'll never buy again!!!!!*roar*

oh yeah dear BJBA , i'm so lazy to sms all of you (and my hp bill last month exploded) so i'll just post our/my plans here.

1.As jy(working) and jessie(holiday) cannot make it on the 28th nov , the picnic outing shall be postponed to the first weekend of dec

2.Any objections please sms me

3.wanted to push forward to this weekend , but glynis's ah ma birthday so cannot.and it's very rush..

4.Jennifer,jy and I will be doing holis homewk at RP this sat cos' we cannot do homewk at home(too many distractions) interested ppl please sms me.

5.Jennifer and Cory i will ask my mum whether we are going JB or not this sun , shall inform u all again.

6.who interested in Jurong swimming (actually is go play , not really swimming) please tell me , i hope we can go next Wednesday (jy starts working next Thursday so have to make it before that)

7.I have worked out the food list for picnic, shall email everyone so just take a look at what you will be responsible for.

8.please relay/tell the other BJ to read my post.

i don't suffer from insanity, i enjoy every minute of it.

look who i offended.

2009-11-18T01:11:00.000-08:00

What's wrong with mom?
or should i put my qn in this way :
what's wrong with menopause?

I got home , and saw mom.
she took a look at me with the corner of the eye and continue to do her stuff (as if i m invisible) when i called her.

Thereafter i told her i went for the interview today and i said "they confirm me alr"
this time round , luggy-best , she didn't even look at me as she continue doing her stuffs , as if I've nvr talked (clearly , she's using silence to tell me that 1)i'm not interested about your things 2)i don't see what's there to talk about 3)it's a waste of time to even talk to you

I just don't believe if gor talks to her she will respond LIKE THAT.
like.. wtf?
she say ah ma prejudice against her, or favours my other aunties who are richer..
oh yeah then how about herself? why am i starting to realise the different treatments she give to gor and me ?
WHY?
go NS is your children , nvr go NS not your children?
going America to work is your children , the one staying in Singapore isn't??

我睁一只眼闭一只眼
你越来越过分

*不爽到极点*

random

2009-11-13T00:31:00.000-08:00

just came back from interview at tanjong pagar+shopping trip at Bugis with jy.

1.got another interview on next Wednesday at Jurong east
2.may be going science center next Wednesday after the interview by the popular people
3.i spent $20 on clothes today
4. jy spent $80 . she super guilty.
5. i'm facing a dearth of dollars now , freaking poor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH!
6.going chomp chomp tmr with BJBA , shall skip dinner tnight.
7.in good mood today(till now)

Love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning.
It starts with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.

TEMPTED.

2009-11-12T05:12:00.001-08:00

KNN I CAN'T STOP MYSELF FROM THINKING

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STOP , BEFORE I LOSE CONTROL OF MYSELF.

you never knew.

2009-11-10T04:19:00.000-08:00

I love my PW group.
But i hate PW.
finally! everything ended! with a big "."

F.R.E.E.D.O.M!

yayyyyyyyyyy! :D

no more Saturday with nothing but only PW.
no more RP with nothing but only PW.
NO MORE SEBASTIAN SCOLDING ME "f*ck" and doing obscene act infront of me while rehearsing OP!!!!

i think i gonna miss this PW group(not PW)
out of the 5groups in the class, i think we are the group with most crapping sessions/dirty jokes/sex education(by the guys)/slacking periods/smacking-Sebas-and-laughing-at-YC time. I must say that i enjoyed doing things with these people :)

WenJia , Yanchng , Sebastian and Bengheng(you still owe us 2 icecreams!) , overall, it's still nice working with you all :)
i think i'll still prefer Yanchng to call me " aeh-ded-lin-ah" instead of my usual "adelyn" because i'm so used to it alr! haha!
love you all lots!!!!!

Oh anyway , eldest bro ROM this sunday!!! :D
my dasao will really be my dasao alr! yay! i like her lah! :)
BUT i got no $ and no time to buy clothes.. so i'll just rummage through the closet to find smth decent to wear.
(i got this feeling in the end I'll still wear the black tube dress from batam..but it's okayy. all clothes will look good on pretty people) :D

I've been thinking when i will post this. Maybe once and for all.
after all, it's past tense already.

I loved you
You loved me
I needed you
You needed me
I trusted you
You trusted me

You dumped me
I still loved you
You hurt me
I still needed you
You betrayed me
I stopped trusting you

I hate you
You may hate me, but i don't give a damn about it.

You were so confident that you can have me back whenever you want
you were so sure i still have a thing for you
you were so greedy that you wanted everything
you have no respect for me
you have no respect for her
you have no respect for yourself

are you objectifying me?
eff u , seriously.
you tell me , what qualities do you have to deserve me?
oh yes, I'm not pretty and I'm gigantic and who am i to think i'm superior?
no get it right.
I'm not superior. it's you, you are inferior.

I am not turning back.
I said I am not turning back.
I don't wanna hear u talk.
I don't wanna read anymore messages.
I am stopping all these shit.
I'm not going to say : because you suck.

It's over.That's it.

oh yes your friends didn't know why you left that job.
i know. eff your dishonesty.serve you right. learn your lesson my dear.

you never understand how i feel, never see things in a way that is more in depth,u do things without considerations.
eff your ignorance (not that it's wrong to be under-educated , but it's your choice.& bad choice btw.)

you were so sure i wanted you.no need to elaborate.
eff you for being over confident

you keep changing girlfriends. no that's not wrong. making me a vamp , a third party is.
eff your disrespect for me and your disloyalty to her.

为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得

世界上那么多人
只有我一个人能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了(你当我傻的啊？）

stop deceiving yourself , the truth is that you don't truly love me.
love isn't like that
you are not something i cannot do without
so it's over.
Time to put an end to it.
The price i paid is huge.
nevertheless I'll move on. and you too.

i used to love you.
i fell in love with you once, twice , thrice.. but along the way, i lost myself.
i realized you will never understand what I'm talking about
it's tough communicating w you cause i have to act as if I'm dumb.
we are from two different world, i am tired from camouflaging myself in your world and behaving as if I'm one of you all.
it's tiring and draining every part of me.

loving you makes me stop loving myself
that's why i love you .. no more.
bye my dearest-ed.

Some point in life, you need friends to help you make decision, or rather, affirm your decision.
I'm glad that early morning i woke up from my own delusion.
i now know how important friends are to me.
when u did something that is rightfully wrong
when u got no one to turn to
when u need someone to reassure and ascertain your decision
Friends are there.

2009-11-06T08:02:00.000-08:00

worry worry worry..
HOW?!?
this is even more worrying than sitting for exams..

okay .. no matter what the doctor say, I'm going to deny it downright straight.that's the only way out now.
Goddamn!!

oh please don't let anything happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New discovery!

2009-10-31T21:18:00.000-07:00

Dear all,
I've recently discovered a very wonderful place to slack and indulge in something I presume that all girls will go crazy over( okay maybe not, but you at least won't hate it)

BECAUSE NO ONE HATES DESSERT!
That's the truth, take it or leave it.

they serve real yummy desserts(TRUST ME)that blow you off(maybe the price is one of the thing that really does)
Taste much better than XingWang and half the price.
it's called Dessert bowl , located along Serangoon garden,just right next to chomp chomp.

The dessert house is located on the second floor, just like.. my aunt's salon?
but what's different is that they have got one full glass window that stretches from the ceiling to almost the ground,replacing the wall that faces the road.it makes the whole place looks simple and good. Simply good :)
Their decorations are very special as in , the entire space is divided into half by a long stretch of miniatures,featuring restaurants. And funny quotes are found on the walls ( you can understand the quotes best only if you know Cantonese)

they do share some similarities with the Khatib Buddy hoaggies cafe. Don't be misled. what I mean is that they commonly share the "non-stress" , delightful ambiance.The Dessert Bowl, too , have a rack where magazines are free to be taken and read.The place is comparatively small, but not necessarily a bad thing.OH and when i was there, what's up on the two LCD TV was Wang Leehom's concert! (imagine listening to "每一次和你分开.." and looking at Leehom's face while savoring mouthwatering dessert in an air-conditioned room)

Went to this dessert house yesterday with Long and Jerome.
The food, as i said , much better than xingwang.
We ordered
almond cream(my personal favourite!Creamy,hot,not too sweet.)
yang zhi gan lu(this is good)
durian crepe(don't really like it)
black glutinous rice with vanilla ice cream(didn't know this combination works!)
Fresh mango with vanilla ice cream, topped with zhenzhu(not bad)

After looking through their menu, which consist of a super long list of hot/cold desserts,i realized they are actually selling those 港式甜点.And i think they did quite a good job in terms of food.
For that 5 different dessert we ordered, the bill only sums up to about 20bucks.
just FYI, xingwang serves ice kachang alone at $7.90 each,exclusive of GST and service charge!
Stomach and wallet , both saved!

Don't the sofa look like those in Buddy Hoaggies?!

we are so plastic

Friends since primary school

we love camwhoring

didn't manage to get a good picture because I was too busy eating :P

Jerome with all the almost-emptied bowls

look at my muscular/toned arm! (i like!)

Shall get BJBA(baijinbang-advance, means inclusive of the two new members) there after our dinner gathering at chomp chomp, already go so far to eat so shouldn't waste the trip :))

2009-10-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

Suddenly , i feel like blogging .. again.
My com crashed , so im now using sebas's laptop to do wr/blog at home.
haha X inefficient.

A lot of things happened after exams , i myself think i am almost out of control. Went drinking twice and puke everytime, and get hang-overs the day after. worse still , hangover plus PW , no idea what's wrong with me i think i am going astray. haha!
One whole day today and i ate only half a packet of horfun and thai tomyum soup, don't feel well now very very dizzy.
my weight dropped to 57.7kg already! :D i'm 2.7kg away from target..

i'm going shopping with aunty jen tmr , and maybe the others too. i got that URGE to splurge or spend extravagantly!! :D
Next week's gonna take back results already, heard that jen and cory both got B for chemistry , i think i m dead. hais wateva lah! must take it easy.. (breathe in..breathe out..)

Toilet in the masterbed room is renovated! no more disfunctioning and space-taking jacuzzi , all gone :) oh yeah and i love my new toilet bowl.

Bye!

i did it on purpose.
it wasn't what i intended though
i lost only because of 1 thing, get it right , 1 thing.
and i don't regret staying by my principals, it is what that makes me.

2009-10-06T21:00:00.001-07:00

Updates:

Finish GP, biology , econs and Chemistry paper , one more maths to go before i'm done
think i screw up
fell asleep first time studying for exams ytd, work up with the pile of unread notes next to me and it's 5.30am in the morning.
starting to doubt if i'll get promoted
WeiLong go NS today, omg i feel sad
Cocoa keep on "whining" the moment i'm back , very noisy , i think he miss gor too
Cocoa keep on barking at nothing. as in really nothing, wonder what did he saw? ( yes i'm scared)
my weight keeps dropping, ironically i am a bit worried
Lack of sleep , pimper spree on my face
eating out with Xiying tmr after exam
giving lynn chemistry tuition at night
Friday meeting Gly for makeover at salon ( very long nvr see her alr!) , will be enjoying my day 'cause i know physics students will be cracking their brain while i am doing hair treatment ( i didn't deny that i m wicked)
got the cheese fondue recipe alr , CC u better come! ( how can PS BJB??)

CS that asshole lies with a flow of eloquence and great logic , may him be cursed with a rotten mouth.

changing my blog url soon .

nothing uglier than this possible.

2009-09-20T10:46:00.000-07:00

Got home today and shrieked even before i enter the house.
my cocoa become a sheep already.
unskilled bro went to shave his hair and i think cocoa struggled too much and the battery was flat even before the shaving is complete.

cocoa now has big unshaved ear, tiny pointy nose, small "i am so unlucky" face, super uneven fur and a beard.He looks so .. awful.
ugly little freak.(sorry cocoa it's not your fault, don't worry i'll still love you nevertheless)

1.31am in the morning and i've just completed editing my latest WR.
Going to do Bio later.

Everything is like kinda screwed up.. and i seriously need to drop some weight and get a haircut, i think i look like a mop.

heng at least i look better den cocoa.

randoms

2009-08-15T09:41:00.000-07:00

Been dieting these few days!
Try surviving without proper meals,getting your energy from bananas and apples.
Now I know how does a monkey feels .. given a choice i think monkeys will prefer char kuay tiao, roti prata , lor mee more than bananas.

I am currently facing a dearth of dollars .. argh! there will never be enough money.
hais! I have completely no idea where all my notes went.. I don't spend much on food(because I'm constantly permanently dieting) and I did not spend much on shopping, but i just dont see much cash!
Damn!

anyway, just came back from ah ma house for dinner . Tmr is Jessie's birthday, we're just going to eat dinner at kopithiam ..very auntie haha! Jessie your present very ex you die also must use okayy?!

Promos is a bloody 51 days away.. god please save me! I guess i'm in a mess!
Night!

Mugger so what ?

2009-07-30T06:59:00.000-07:00

To imagine how your life could be better and then have the means yourself to change it.

Guess my blog needs to retire soon,
the reason?
My time is a scarcity,
I've got to make choices to make sure my Mum will get the highest satisfaction from my year end result report, hence blogging has become an opportunity cost- the highest alternative forgone.

How I wished Ceteris Paribus does hold; that the assumption:as long as you study,you will do well is true in the reality.
I'm proud being a Mugger you know, because I know where's my limit,and I know it myself：I'm nowhere near, not even 30%.
any idea what differentiates a Mugger and a nerd? muggers study hard and play hard , nerds just study hard and cry hard if they didn't get their 90percentile or is the lowest among the Agrades in class, that's the difference.

How about a mugger and a closet mugger?
A closet mugger will always go "why are you studying?! don't study leh i also never study!I don't care one" when he actually read the notes upside down inside out the night before.
A mugger ? One that will tell you she did study, openly , and won't mind you calling her a mugger, just like me.

(Quitting tuition in a month's time!)
:)

2009-07-13T08:14:00.000-07:00

Evaluation of material--first draft of the First Draft-- completed.
One Down!

铁了心才做出的决定

2009-07-07T08:39:00.000-07:00

Congratulations , You pissed me off.
Decided to put an end to it on my part.
Enough is enough.
我不是傻瓜不要再被你放鸽子
我不是白痴不会这样子被你耍
我希望你快乐但老实说你的快乐令我很不快乐
我越看越不顺眼越看就越讨厌
我看不下去了所以希望你能在我的世界里完全消失
那会是我最后最后一次为你流眼泪
故事的开端结局一开始就被定下别让它有第二章
你听好我才是作者主宰我自己命运的人我不是你的玩偶
我希望这是真正的全剧终。

2009-07-06T04:41:00.000-07:00

最近的我不快乐
我好像说了很多谎跟我自己说谎
我变得很情绪化我可以很快乐突然变得很不快乐两个极端交叉替换好累人
面对一件事我一下看的开一下看不开
说好的阿我会很好但有好像不是真的如此
我无法理解我到底在想什么
这不是我不是林慧珊的作风

不是的，我很了解情况但我一直替自己找理由
我不能跟谁说，跟谁说都一样我会很瞧不起我自己
日记我一页一页的写每一次都跟我自己说“我可以更好”
但我下一次提笔又会是因为同一个矛盾同一件事情
你懂这种感觉吗？
我懂。
我不想再为了某些小小的事情让我心情跌落谷底
我不要因为别人脸上的微笑，无论真假，让我停止我的微笑
我本来也可以过得很好的啊
何必自己一个痛苦多不值啊

我因该有从中学到什么我还在努力把它认清楚
所以最近的我希望会更快乐

2009-07-04T03:51:00.000-07:00

Back from 2309 class Chalet ! :)
I am sure I'm not as tired as the rest, cause I slept at 4am. The rest didn't at all. haha!

It was a simple but really a pleasant,amusing,entertaining,and definitely enjoyable Chalet outing.
Woke up at 7am so as to pack my bag and meet Zhi Heng(my class leader) and YY(YingYu, we are the food IC ) at 10am to buy the ingredients for the steamboat.

We went to the wet market to buy the food and went over to zhi hing's house to prepare it. It seems like being able to deal with squids(sotong) is really a big deal. LOL now then i realised. Mummy i love you for teaching me how to cut squids up without messing up the kitchen with their 一肚子的墨水.haha!
Decided to have steamboat instead because there isn't alot of ppl actually. quite a few turn up , and about 10 stayed Overnight.

It's at the Costa Sands, Really very small as compared to the one we used to have for LEO. There's no living room , no tables(we ate steamboat on the floor! One in a lifetime experience!) no second storey. it's just like a typical hotel room. But it's okay , we're very small in size :)

We went for a walk in the Pasir ris park after leaving our bags in the room.Took LOTS of pictures along the way. Zhi Heng keep on demonstrating how to catwalk-man or woman-he knows both and believe me , he's good at it. I was laughing all the way throughout and was so "high" that i actually cat walk with him while the others take a video of it. LOL! that's embarassing but it's so god damn hilarious! Zhi heng says he wants to "zai pei" me and i told him he really looks like those runway models instructor.

After dinner we went to Cycle. yes, it's night cycling :) Had to say that the cycling part was a little slow cause we got a lot of ppl , have to ensure no one gets lost. went from coasta sand to Tampines park connector and go back again. I was shag and dead tired, so tired that i think i'm the first one to fall asleep - at 4am.(they say it's "still early") . Some of them continue to cycle till like 6am ? siao!

Everything went on smoothly - thank god.
Atleast i feel that our dinner is considered decent and we are also very good boys and girls--no alcohol. haha!
Photos i lazy upload , can be seen in facebook i'm tagged :)

Now i'm going to clean the floor , then sort out my worksheets and files , den maybe chiong tutorials . Anw,exams were disastrous :

GP:never fail to fail
BIO:Crap
CHEM:easy paper but no time finish
MATHS: 33m empty- AJC must be crazy. JY,BELIEVE ME YOU WILL BE STUNNED BY MY PAPER IF YOU SEE IT, it's a 13qn paper .

BYE!

2009-06-17T18:21:00.000-07:00

I'm doing what I know is wrong.
SIGH!

Life's too full of risk

2009-06-11T19:22:00.000-07:00

Yippee! :D
waking up tomorrow at 5, heading for Genting, my old old 熟到烂 place.
Not that it's interesting there, Singapore's weather driving me mad! so I'll be very happy to enjoy their naturally A/C climate !! haha!

This week has been disastrous, loads of lessons and shit stuff , and i think Interact is pissed off with me already. Simply because i didn't turn up for the pre-interact day event thingy, neither did i turn up for the actual one. Received a msg from someone i didn't know telling me "I need you to attend an event on behalf of the interact club on this Saturday", not stating who is she/he, what event it is,what am i required to do,who am i meeting, where is the event held and all.
Well,i didn't bother to ask anyways, replied "can't make it.Out of Singapore."
and there's no reply.
"she's the new elected president",said Yixian when i showed him the number.
Okay. Have i offended someone again,unintentionally?
that's my life i guess.
I was really busy with something else i swear! Not that i did it on purpose right?

Just being random, I was at RP again yesterday with Yixian & Shufen, and i incidentally found out a way to make someone feels like she's dying, tortured and yet not really dying from it.
wanna learn?

Just force her/him to memorize the reproductive cycle of virus while she/he is having a migraine. WOOTS!
好像中了降头般，碎碎念：attachment,penetration,uncoating,synthesis,assembly & release..attachment,penetration,uncoating,synthesis,assembly & release..attachment,penetration,uncoating,synthesis,assembly & release....
(someone's gonna be SO disturbed and disgusted upon reading this)
Influenza,Bacteriophage,Human Immunodeficiency Virus..what has all these shitass got to do with ME?

Memorize Memorize Memorize
saved.
exam over? Delete.

Photos!

stretching caught in action!

Shufen so cute! :D

Mummy: you look like an old virgin in this photo. -.- does old virgins look LIKE THAT ?

That's the well-known BangBang.

you mugger!

Today's Breakfast(random)
Mum's specialty:Marinated cockles!

ytd's supper > Desert soup :D

Something to share, I nearly got killed yesterday's evening!
I was happily showering in the bathroom,took my own sweet time hand washing my clothes,scrubbing my feet,shampooing my hair..
It's when i stepped out of the bathroom with my hair still damp,i thought i was dreaming because i saw the whole kitchen in a haze--white,just like what you see in TV drama when deities appear and there will be white smoke coming out of nowhere, but I was brought back to reality when i recognize the fact that smells doesn't exist in dreams-especially a strong,overpowering smell that tells me something's burning.

As if it's a reflex action, instinctively i look at the stove,but no, there's no cooking/burning going on.Then, I jerked my head(i swear i did that) and look in the 10 o'clock direction from the stove, and i literally saw my Microwave oven smoking.
I ranted a few non-hokkien vulgarities as i ran and switched it off with a "ting!" (i bet i beat my shuttle run record this time round)

Went to the culprit's room and said"chaotar liao!". It's my dad,again.
The white smoke hovered around for at least another hour,and the chaotar smell lasted more than 3 hours. This scenario had repeated itself for years already, i used to reprimand him for being so forgetful, forgetting to turn off the stove and whatsoever, and put our precious lives at risk. But i didn't do it this time, considering the fact that he's a 51 year-old old man.

Tsk tsk tsk, adults used to tell me memory fails as you age, but i can't believe that his memory started deteriorating at a very fast rate since like more than a decade ago.
He was actually sleeping while the microwave nearly exploded(I'm positive that it will explode if I'd scrubbed my feet 2more minutes longer.)

Didn't take any photos though, i was busy talking to him to make sure he was awake I'm so glad Buffy didn't suffocate from that haze . Don't want him to die during his last month here =/

P.S: i miss Glynis and Jessie! and JY misses me(i know) :p

6 hr marathon

2009-06-05T03:22:00.000-07:00

I camped at Republic Poly for about 6hours today.
what did i do ?
I finished 2 sets of comprehension and.. i finally understood what's Helicase, Single strand DNA binding protein,DNA polymerase 3,DNA polymerase 1, DNA Ligase , and my dear RNA polymerase.
My dear friends,it's until TODAY that i recognize your identity and what's your purpose of existence.
I've been going "What the shit is that ?" whenever the Lecturer/tutor mention your names.

Anw, back to Republic Poly right, it is indeed a school with very good environment to study! but apparently, i don't see alot studying.
there are truck loads of ppl there but mostly playing com games, with the exception of a handful of China students staring at there notes through their thick glasses(and they sit there as long as i do)
No wonder Singaporeans are falling behind these "foreign talent".
It's really a waste for the library to be under-utilized, maybe more of us people should go there help them"utilize" it fully haha!

Anyway,their food very cheap and yummy! nextime causeway point overcrowded we go there eat ! :D

这就是传说中的 “速战速决“

2009-06-03T03:44:00.000-07:00

4months ago, he got himself a girlfriend, a very good one i must say.
2weeks ago, I've got to know that he's planning to ask for her hand.
1week ago, I saw him researching on engagement rings online.
5days ago, He show me the ring and said "I'm proposing tonight"
4days ago, He officially went to her house, and asked for permission to marry their daughter
2minutes ago, He told me he's going to look at apartments today.

WALAO EH HIS ACTION SIBEI FAST LAH!
His breakneck speed sent my jaws dropping to the ground.

RUMOUR

2009-05-28T04:32:00.000-07:00

OH - MY - GAWD ~ ~!

My brother is planning to propose to Merlyn Jie(my dasao) !
now,tell me how BIG this news is?!

P.S:shhhhh..planning only, haven confirm , so dear cousins please don't spread first , there will be time for that (; )

leading my life too happily , that's why.

2009-05-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

Gained 2kgs in a week's time . . .
i have a very big round tummy now .
but it's okay , i've got 4PE sessions next week, acting as some form of consolation :X
(that's my holiday present man)

Bye!

i can ACTUALLY fly .

2009-05-14T04:30:00.000-07:00

Good news (for me) !
I ran my 2.4km napfa within 13:57 . i'm awesome man
( well done dear legs! *give a pat*)
Presenting to you ...
Adelyn with a capital A for 2.4km!
haha so proud of myself !

Bad news(for me also)
why did i gain 1kg after running 2.4 km ?

meeting BJB tmr !
not all of them ofcourse due to some AHEM ppl (no i'm not being obvious at all .. hor FJY ?)
Haha okay no hard feelings , know you've been busy . just Jiayou in whatever you are busy with alright ?! ;)

p.s : Today Sister Andrew damn suay forget his keys forget his handphone , cannot go home and cannot call for help .. tsk tsk , see lah?! told you to memo my number by heart already! atleast you can come acc me eat macdonals!

and to 那个人：
I've heard about it already.
You're such a disgrace lah! really is .. sibei throw face.
难怪我小姨说分手是因为我平时善事做得多。

母亲节快乐！！

2009-05-09T20:58:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's day Mummy !!!!
okayy i admit there were some conflicts and hard feelings earlier on,but MOTHER'S DAY is the day i would like to say sorry and most importantly , I LOVE YOU !
Thanks for being there always !

oh yeah we went to celebrate early on Friday , at the buddy Hoagies cafe.
Their Rib Eye considered not bad , but really very expensive.
i still prefer Jack's place. Weilong has been complaining and criticizing the cafe and the lady boss , he said "whatever that is delicious and appetizing will become not delicious and not appetizing , after you see their kitchen's state." (well , then don't see lor! 眼不见为净）

And Saturday i went there again to have pizzas, chicken wings , cakes and all those fattening stuffs. and i reckon the lady boss recognize my that bunch of relatives and I already , because we patronize them almost every week.

Okay back mummy's day , we ordered EMIcakes's durian cake for mum. Two simple words to describe the cake : HEAVENLY and SINFUL.
haha but it is expected lah , tasted their chocolate cake during weilong's birthday and it already super yummy, and i was told they actually specialized in baking Durian cakes , not chocolate cakes.

结论

2009-05-02T10:46:00.000-07:00

有时候，我会想，我的品味真的有点问题。
我不是不会分辨帅还是不帅，只是若是选男朋友，我好像越来越不重视他的外表到底要有多好看。
这也导致选人的眼光越来越差。
差到找到的都是不能带回去见人的那种，是我出了什么问题吗？
难道是我瞎了？每次都是莫名其妙的分手，为了莫名其妙的原因。
不要问我“谁叫你眼光那么差，怎么找一个这么****的?”
因为我也不知道。
那是一种感觉，感觉不论外貌，感动就好了。
所以对了就在一起，不对那就分开，正如他所说的：“没有什么大不了”

我不需要一个人空有外表
我不需要一个流动提款机
我不需要像浆糊一样天天腻在一起
我不需要谁百般呵护

我不要你不真
我不要我整天担心受怕
我不要你不忠
我不要我呼之则来，挥之则去

每一个决定，我其实也心里有数。
我想 , 我也是一样 . 好玩.

真正的爱情因该不会是这样的吧? 那也未免太悲哀
对我好的人很多, 真正认真的好像没有半个.
真是 ... 阿弥陀佛.

我原来没有那么乖

2009-04-25T20:19:00.000-07:00

我不知道我又哪里让你看不顺眼
还是那里惹到你
你怎么最近一直顶我

我不认真读书你批评
我认真读书你也批评
整天为了那种小事跟我吵
衣服该谁洗，为什么我每天换那么多套衣服，为什么我不在家里读书要在外面读，为什么我花那么多钱。。。。。这种事也要吵？！

衣服我不洗因为我忙我说我洗就等于洗衣机洗你也不爽
一个人每天至少也要冲一次凉所以我每天都要换衣一个礼拜两次pe 所以换很多衣服这个理由很牵强吗？
我去外面读，就是因为你整天都看我不顺眼，家里又热又吵，为了concentrate，我出去读，又那里顶到你的路？
至于钱，我不觉得我花得过分。除了吃以外，我的钱都花在原本因该由你们该付的东西上！！
什么classfund , assessment books , 有的没的，就连我的校服也是我的钱买得ok?
是我赚的，所以是我的钱！
他妈的不知道就不要在那边指桑骂槐，唠唠叨叨， and trying to be so sarcastic.

要骂就骂直接一点 just say it in my face :"我们家没有钱，你不要再花老娘的钱，衣服你自己洗，要不要读书是你的事，你不要丢我的脸就好！ + 看到你就讨厌！”
不知道我几时从宝贝女儿变成了眼中钉，心中刺。
做什么都不对，就连我出门去讨论GPP 你都可以说我要去乱花钱我真是受够了你的冷嘲热讽。
若找得到机会，我一定搬去833住，
靠近AJC , JUST EDU , mugger's CAFE 。。最重要的是 , 它远离我家。

-and why i don't hear you praising me when i do the right thing?

-危机-

2009-04-10T22:45:00.000-07:00

EMERGENCY , EMERGENCY , EMERGENCY , EMERGENCY ..!!!
I myself is already in a case of emergency ,
darn it! why is it so difficult to make a decision ?
stop being fickle minded and stick to one lah!!!!

phenomenons of stress level rocketing starts to surface, silently .
intensive devastating hair loss, acne-plagued back/face, loss of appetite ,avoidance from reality by sleeping all the time,silliness cum childishness , and hotheadedness , all indicators of how nonresistant we are to stress D:
I feel like running away at times
but keep on reminding myself :there's nowhere you can run to , so just brave it.
It feels like .. you're being pulled apart .
Part of you wants to get motivated and do well ,
while the other part wants to do nothing but auto-shutdown.
It's not a fight between the angel and devil , it's one between faith and fear.
Lim Hui Shan you better stop procrastinating if not you are not getting anywhere!!!
It's time to get to work(还是很不爽）
别假装很用功，要真的很用功去用功！

Attention Diverted.

2009-03-29T06:20:00.000-07:00

I'm enlightened.
if you treat me like grass , I'll treat you no better .
if you treasure me , I'll so the same .
that's my resolution.

没有心，我做什么都是徒劳的，都没有用。

Anyway , Biology and maths triggered my mugger spirit out already.
Starting from today,
My rusty engine restarts :)

2009-03-24T09:31:00.000-07:00

The best and worst thing is that , you don't leave me completely.
it stops me from dying of pain,
but prevents the pain from going away.
it doesn't make me worse off
it won't make me better
just pain.
that's all.

unbroken.

2009-03-22T02:33:00.000-07:00

My immature love died peacefully on the 23rd if March , my long awaited one-month anniversary
是朋友的，就别问那么多。

我想你是爱我的
我猜你也舍不得
但是怎么说总觉得我们之间留了太多空白格
也许你不是我的爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择但它也可能是我们的缘分

"When I was about to fall in love... I fell out of love unknowingly"
偏偏能完全安抚我的人，只有你

我的好朋友，我对你感激不尽。
我不懂该说什么，你明白我心就好。

纸，包得住火吗？

2009-03-08T06:22:00.000-07:00

告诉她，还是不告诉她，比较好？

things are starting to get complicated alr.
i'm vexed, and worried.
news diffuses.
i use the word because i can't stop it , it's out of my control.
when there's air , there will be air particles, concentration gradient will always exist.
two alternatives :
1.remove all particles that are diffusing,assume nth ever happened.(i can't do that)
2.let it diffuse , admit and explain . one day, everything will come to peace , and equilibrium is achieved.

they said "i think news is spreading , maybe into your little aunt's ear alr"
所以我的压力无限大。

if aunt may dont side with me , it will be a GG for me .
if 她knows about it , i've got lots to explain.
if 她 doesnt agree to it , it will be the EOG.

sounds straightforward and easy,
to tell you the truth ,
我很怕但我不想隐瞒你，
我也很想坦荡荡。

2009-03-05T23:12:00.000-08:00

Desperation Is The Best Inspiration
SADLY,very true.

I m not desperate - not yet,but soon.
like jen , I'm still learning how to be a successful,certified,recognized,and acknowledged mugger.

Economics's something interesting ?
wait till i see the exam paper .

LET'S MUG !

Friends are born, not made

2009-03-04T02:53:00.000-08:00

School is tiring.
sometimes ridiculous.
God knows how much i miss BJB ..

Gly's sarcasm
Jen's habit of clapping her hands whenever she's got something very happening to announce
Jessie's big, wide smile (裂到耳朵那边去的笑容）
JY's never-ending complaints about life
and Cory's contagious laughter

These things were not lost , neither were they reduced in frequency ,
it's just that the time for me to see, hear or feel them were drastically shorten.
So i m really looking forward to Friday!
Friday nights are always wonderful , not to mention those spent with friends you missed =)

The only consolation is that :
It's true that we are born to be friends :)

2009-02-21T19:41:00.000-08:00

Time for some Q&A,BJB!
(DON'T TELL ME I'M CRAZY , BECAUSE I KNOW IT MYSELF )

I was shocked - TWICE !

2009-02-20T17:58:00.000-08:00

HOHO !
it has been half a month since I've posted something .
20th of Feb 2009-I was utterly angry(and SHOCKED) because something very happening.. happened. I can't put it down in words as it will screw up everyone's mindset about him. I felt like a fool being fooled around with. His explanation , I'm still dubious . BUT , for the time being --I trusted him .

21st of Feb 2009-I m happy , in fact , very happy . (and SHOCKED)
only because of MacDonald's delivery.
I can't remember exactly where i've seen this , but i totally agree with it :
The tip to touch a girl's heart is to make as many sacrifices as you can , the bigger the sacrifices the better .
越夸张，越有效 .
(and please , flowers no longer gives a very big effect liao)

but guys , flowers will not serve as Bonuses , but they are Essentials okayy
Do something out of the ordinary!

^^this is a tip to D*****D if he ever sees my posting^^

my reason to be happy has definitely nothing to do with his birthday , it's just a coincidence.

2009-02-05T22:21:00.000-08:00

First thing's first : CONGRATULATIONS to Jessie on her successful appeal into YJC! (although i very much wanted to laugh at her becos she will only be released at 9pm today haha!)

Getting into my current school is like .. being a small fish in a big pond.
Everyone looks anything but approachable/amicable(word from cory) .
Pretentious girls and snobbish boys all over the college compound. *roll my eyes*
it's no wonder that i feel so tired everyday even when the school ends at 12.15pm,
i can't stand breathing in air in the same space as those "extremely-clever-people"(in short,they're all geniuses)

How do i live with one-third of the J1 cohort being 6 /7 pointers ?
when being asked "which school are you from?",
i feel so paiseh to tell that whoever-it-is i'm from a neighbourhood school.

despite all the reputable schools' students dominating the college, i m still very glad to see a number of neighbourhood schools' students (although the number is very pathetic)
i can't wait to change into their uniform officially next week!
(anyway, their uniform is way much nicer than AI's ! that's the only thing worth to be happy about)

Chances are, i'm not getting into the same classes with the 2 other BJgirls.
Only because i chose Biology instead of Physics .
I hope i will not regret this.

*if the $150 calculator ever falls onto the ground , i think i'll get a heart attack or epileptic seizure almost immediately

** and for how long do i need to act ang-mo ? very tiring leh !

***my mum suffered a panda eye,my eldest bro with a bandaged hand and my dad, a badly swollen leg(and my brother is going to drive him to TTS to have his leg operated TODAY).. hope the talisman from the temple works,if not who will be the next one to kena all this shit? i don't want to think about it.

我到底又给自己惹来了什么麻烦啊？

2009-01-28T22:06:00.000-08:00

我双手合十，祈求神明：

千万不要让历史重演！！！！！！！
（I had enough of this!)

Happy cny to my beloved BJB ! (and everyone else ofcourse!)

2009-01-25T18:27:00.000-08:00

YES glynis i've just read your blog and that slacker is you indeed!
haha ;)
don't worry BJBs i'll make sure the food is edible , utmost i wear gloves lah!
anyway,i just recieved my 3rd pay since the holiday starts ...
好累人的$700 ah !!

c you girls on the 30th!
whoever comes with a partially-filled/filled -stomach shall die a terrible death!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

乱

2009-01-23T05:30:00.000-08:00

It really turns me off to open my cabinet and see RUBBISH--you can just read it off literally.
and what's frustrating me is that when i try to throw them away , my dad will scavenge in the piles of rubbish and keep them in his room (thinking that i don't know)
oh god can you just stop keeping those rubbish in the house ?
you need the definition of rubbish ?

RUBBISH=THINGS THAT YOU WON'T NEED EVEN IF THEY DO HAVE A FUNCTION/PURPOSE.

每一件发明都有用，但是有用归有用，你用得着meh ?!

want proof ?
give you a tip : open my storeroom and you will totally understand what I'm saying， without me breathing a word.

ps:tmr last day of work!!! i can't describe how happy i m , no need to travel to boonlay every single day anymore!

Time to take a break and have a kitkat

2009-01-21T08:42:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired .
believe it or not , i've not seen my mum for 3 consecutive days alr , despite us sleeping in the same room and that both of us return home everyday without fail .

I'm so tired .
CNY is approaching and my house is still in a total mess , and apparently , nobody cares or i should say " nobody cared", except me .
my holiday is such a sad case , while some of my friends are happily slacking their holiday away , i have to wake up at 7am everyday and report to work at 10am .
when the clock finally strikes 8pm , I'll drag my body home ..
and you think that's the end of my daily routine ?
NO ! FAT HOPE!
washing the toilets , cleaning the floor ... etc etc
the spring cleaning job again, inevitably , landed on me .
everyday i sleep at 12pm or even later .
OH WHAT A LIFE !

I'm so tired.
And I realised i m so hardworking that my hand starts to rot bec I've been in contact with too much chemicals like mint shampoo,hair dye and all sorts
you know it just feels like something burning at your wrist , appearing like rashes(red), and when you touch it , it feels like plastic .
and hell who knows , IT HURTS.
Good grief .

Done with ranting , time for bed .
Good night world.

PS:Andrew my "sister" is finally back from Taiwan! I miss bugging him with my sms!

To Him :
Goodbye uncle , I'll miss you .
Rest in peace .

A Place Nearby

2009-01-20T05:34:00.000-08:00

Heaven is a place nearby
So I won't be so far away
And if you try and look for me
Maybe you'll find me someday
Heaven is a place nearby
So there's no need to say goodbye
I will ask you not to cry
I'll always be by your side

You just faded away
You spread your wings,
you had flown Away to something unknown
Wish I could bring you back
You're always on my mind
About to tear myself apart
You have your special place in my heart, always

你总会牵着我的小手过马路，带我到咖啡店
你总是点一样的东西
一杯咖啡乌，我们一人一半
我哭闹，你就抱我，带我到家楼下走走

那个时候，你黑黑的头发开始变白了
你坐在椅子上，我就会一根一根的拔
边拔，我边笑你“你老了”

后来我长大了，见面的机会减少，
但我每个农历新年都坚持要去跟你拜年
每隔一年我看见你，你就看起来更苍老
头发，已是全白了

我还以为我过不久又可以看到你跟你拜年
我还以为我又可以看见你微笑的面容
我还以为我可以跟你说 “我终于中学毕业了”
可是一切都来不及
你走得太快
你没有等我

当我昨天看见你
你睡得好熟
他们跟你化妆，画得好不像你
我不想承认但那的确是你你的鼻你的脸
我叫你可是你没有理我
你有听到我说的话吗？
我说“我是珊珊，我来看你了”
你有听到吗？

一路走好啊
你会永远活在我心中
你的笑
你的白发
你的疼爱
会永远活在我心中

谢谢你让我的童年过得那么快乐
谢谢你

And even when I go to sleep
I still can hear your voice
And those words
I never will forget

我最开心的日子

2009-01-12T06:56:00.000-08:00

Allow me be proud of myself for the very last time in my secondary school life ! ;)
proud of my hardearned 8pts.

i would like to thank
Mdm Latifah who teaches me physics ,
Ms Ng who imparted me chemistry knowledge ,
and Ms Chew who'd always make lessons interesting !
and to all other teachers who taught me for the past 2 years ..i would like to say a big THANK YOU to you all , i m so super-duper lucky to have good teachers(overall) teaching me and helping me through the demanding and exhausting period of time.

All those late nights
piles of worksheets
tonnes of assessment books
Litres of tears that soaked all my worksheets and smudged my writings
panda eyes with 2 eye bags 'sagging' below it
out-of-shape hair
numerous number of breakdowns

All the hard work finally paid off!
Adelyn , you deserve a pat on your shoulder! ;)

and also , i would like to thank BJB for being together through the hard times and the bad times.
i know i've cried like eight thousand six hundred and forty nine times infront of you girls..but it feels good(or better?) to have ppl to surround you and practically STUFF you with tissues when you are down.
THANK YOU GIRLS!!!
and i would proudly announce the average L1R5 of BJB....

10.66666666666....(it goes on and on)
*thunderclaps and lion roar~~~!

i m so sorry but to say that ..
BJB just rocks man!!! :D

"Every worthwhile accomplishment,big or little,has its stages of drudgery and triumph:a beginning,a stuggle,and a victory"
-Abraham lincoln